When I'm down, I try to talk to someone. It is both the thought of who to talk to, and the experience of the talk itself, which makes me realise it's not enough, that I need someone else who is not here yet in order to fully be able to comfort me.

urgh its so hard to write about essays when u dun even noe wat u r thinking about at the moment.

Holiday life

is boring, repetitive. Took a part time job and now chionging all the work by today cus it's like the deadline.
My lab session ended alr, (the experiments failed with flying colours) so I need to write a report about it, such as what happened and how to improve and stuff.
But other than that really liked the outings haha.

Prommmm

Prom is just spam ALL the photos.
XD My favourite XD

i did a terrible terrible job. fk im STILL not good enuf

holiday plans

Shall write down my plans for this holidays, so that whenever I come back to 'admire' my own blog posts I can be reminded of my holiday plans and be hardworking.

1. Finish all uni application ASAP!!
2. Go back school do experiment (hopefully I dun tank everything again... hinthint gc hinthint)
3. Read my encyclopedia
4. Read my biochem text book
5. Do my part-time job
6. Play dota (and be proer at it)
7. Write novel (and poke someone to give me the character outline alr)
8. Write poem (try to get 灵感 from daily life)
9. Do translation (practise makes perfect)
10. Work out
11. Watch movies that I've missed
12. Go on becoming an alpha lvl 5 fanyi
13. Master the skill of copying any food I tasted
14. Hang out with friends
15. Synthesise chloroform

exxxplosion

building up too much steam and not letting them out is very bad for me.

here goes nothing

poke

there are a few reasons for me to make lame jokes and comments without realising it.
One of them is the disillusion that what I said is not lame.
And that is caused by the fact that people do not outright criticise my lameness, unlike somebody. :P
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ok left with bio mcq before A levels is finally over!
Actually I don't expect myself to feel more released after bio MCQ, because throughout A Level period I didn't suffer from any form of exam-related stress. Let's just say that I'm working my best to strive for what I want and do not give in to stress at all. The longest period of pre-exam panic lasted for 10 min on the day before GP, before I went back to playing UNL. I guess that's also part of my personality, to be unaffected by misfortunes and impending doom.

argh chem was so careless and brainless :/

expressing real happiness.

we r never ever ever, getting back together (to econs)
oh bio, why u so gp. bio paper 3 last qn essay was gpish. and it surprised everyone by testing respiration again

my A level mugging life is separated into a few sections: sleeping, eating, mugging, swimming, working out, mapling. ahhhh such stagnant life.
*goes back to mug bio and econs*
i shall not see the answers for a lvl math so that i can remain happy and unware for the rest of the year :D

must not square number on both sides when finding ratio ._.

lol chem is lol

i hate savage breasts

the final struggle is soon.
missing people randomly while doing papers haizzz :/
Ok I shall resolve to resume my novel again after A Levels, together with many other things to do.

suspension

I believe it was caused by misinterpretation, lack of skills as well as differing expectations at both ends.
I suppose I have to learn from such an incident, that not everyone is who I think they are, or maybe not everyone wants to be who I think they are.
You were right, but you were also wrong. But I shall dao for the time being instead of letting emotions affect me and start raging. Need quiet moments for identifying myself.
This will last for quite some time.

while everyone's grades are improving mine remained stagnant from BT to prelims ._. disappointment haiz

Supply side policy

Thamsy once noted that I like to do supply side policies.
It is just investments in the short run with no predictable benefits, but with possible long run benefits.
Was lol-ing so hard today when we went to visit our IHC teacher at high school side.
Me: (casually) 'Mrs Tay treat us lunch!'
Mrs Tay: 'Ok. What you want?'
That is like $2+ for 6 people. :P
It still feels good to spend time with people in the private (insert name of shape here), hey it means I'm expanding.
Rayray and thamsy both said if people are sorted into either 'kill other people' or 'kill themselves', I would definitely go into the 'kill other people' category. I guess so, since I enjoy life too much to think about killing myself, there's always things to look forward to everyday.
Kill other people, perhaps it is a manifestation of the desire to protect what you treasure, that you are willing to fight to keep that. Rayray was saying I would probably kill someone if he/she steals my close friend. Thamsy suggested need to be lover close friend maybe not so extreme. I guess that may be true, but I think I do protect my close friends (MY) rather fiercely, although it is not displayed actively in daily life. But I suppose if I was really forced into that corner, either penknife or chemicals may come into use.

9 type personality

I did the Enneagram 9 personality type again (just to see whether there is a change in personality). Turned out to be quite unchanged.
3 6 1 6 4 5 2 1 8 <----- my scores for the 9 types starting from 1.
So I guess my defining characters are peacemaker, helper and individualist. Kind of interesting cus there might be some kind of contradiction between these.
I would see myself as someone who is rather independent, but likes people to depend on me, especially for emotional sense of dependence. That's why the more a person relies on me the more I like the person. Hehe that's why my close friends are so important to me :P

scary

Scary isn't it, when a person loses the meaning to live, no one can convince him or her to stay in this world.

The elaboration on 'fanyi is too nice' is that even when the action is clearly not worth it, I would still carry on. It is driven by rational irrationality.

feel

One guy once said 'If you want to know about aa, bb, cc and dd, ask Fan Yi.'
I laughed at that time cus it suggested how stalker I am sometimes. (ok maybe alot of the times.)
But I know I don't 'know about' these people at all. People tend to form a closed system where even emotions are not left exposed. And it is very hard to read or feel people's emotions, or understand their thoughts. One good question is why do I want to know so much, which I currently am trying (and sort of failing cus I hardly analyse myself nowadays) to find a non-biased answer.
On the other hand, I'm super self-conscious such that I link any not so obvious comments about a not so obvious someone to myself and see whether it applies, and then what does the not so obvious comment mean.

In the end I'm not unique enough to be irreplaceable.

fluid

Is it just me, or is there almost no change from the initial point even after an action was made?
Even if I'm 外柔内刚, the 刚 part requires certain specific requirements. I am still unable to achieve the requirements to be 刚, which is why I'm so fluid now. It's like water, it doesn't have a fixed shape and takes whatever the container wants it to be, it flows over obstacles bypassing it instead of conquering it.
There was a recent event that made me realise how little I understood my friend(s). Or maybe I do understand except I made use of the trust for my own purpose. I am just .... terrible.
I'm sorry. I always feel that the injury did not mend.

denial

I need some glam photos now rawrrr.
Yesterday had a convo that was rather epiphany-ish. I have this feeling that my flaw is being pointed out over and over again except that I don't seem to have much improvements >.< But oh wells after yesterday I was like 'yes I must be confident and assertive and sensible and dependable and deep-thinking.'
Which was a lot of stuff to work on. I feel like an underdeveloped sports talent. But ah the word here is 'talent', has great potential but not yet explored. I wonder how I would turn out to be 10 years down the road hmmmz. The current fanyi would slowly morph again.

Like the blue sky

Wah rayray u dam pro I think I got epiphany like that.
Yup make it like the blue sky. Especially those cloudless blue sky dam nice one.
In the mean time, I shall think about my principle of life at night.
Oh chem was lol.

wl im still like that dam pain >.<

Horoscope

Suddenly started reading about horoscopes. Seems quite interesting and sometimes accurate. The descriptions for different horoscopes sort of gave me a confirmation of how I see my friends. So I'm rather good at looking at people's personality I guess. But other than that, it also gave me new insights into different horoscopes, even myself.
Made me realise certain things..

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我可以爱你吗？
我可以重爱你吗？
也许，我们都想过。
假如我照常爱着你，而你只要当我是朋友就好了，可以吗？
我可能想过，不知你对他/她有没有也这样想过。
很无逻辑的，但是你应该已经习惯了吧？

It's very hard to write things for a close friend, just like it is very hard to write things for oneself.
On a side note, I had a guess, but I'm thinking it is probably wrong, and now I'm very very confused.

infatuation, obsession, or love?

sry that the convo just vanished like that.
I'm not sure wat to say, but I still want your presence.

Poetry is always equated to emotional outburst for me

When the world ends, I would sit alone.
Delightfully lonely, happily ignoring
The fact that I knew, the treacherous void
of emptiness, despair, insecurity, desire
That writhes and screams, echoing through my soul.
But I would smile, and weep, holding the hands of my best friends
The melancholic ghosts of the past, and the idealistic forms of the mind,
An imaginary world that sucks reality dry.
Until one by one, arms extend into that unbreakable bubble,
Pulling and embracing
me out of my dreams
The warmth of your body, and the tingle of your voice.
To you, and maybe you all: I could destroy my own world, just to be there
Quietly sitting beside your shadow, laughing or smiling, like I always would.

- Fanyi, 1.20 am, 30/5/12.
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I probably got this kind of emotional outburst after reading 'The opposite of loneliness'.
HARDCORE ORG SYN MUGGING RAWRRRRRR.

Who am I?

Based on the 9 types personality test, I'm the kind of person who is very aware of myself. Hence even if I hide things from other people, I can't hide it from myself, and I am clear why I do certain things and why I don't do certain things.
And so based on my own consciousness (and assuming that my subconscious did not try to hide away anything yet), I am very sure that I give in too easily to other people's opinion of me. I am very conscious about how I appear to be before other people, and hence I take in whatever kind of comments they have about me. Some told me to be true to myself, some told me to man up, some told me to be nice to people. I changed myself according to what other people want from me, and what I think other people want from me.
Am I really true to others, no exactly. From every comment, I took what I think is important, and adjusted it so that I still feel comfortable with myself.
That's why I can be high, I can be bitch, I can be nonsensical, I can be serious. But who I truly am? It's a very complicated question.
I believe that I'm quieter than I appear to be.
I believe that I'm shyer than I appear to be.
I believe that I'm nicer than I appear to be. (there has been a decrease in level of niceness)
I believe that I'm more emotional, and more emotionless, than I appear to be.
I believe that I care more and care less than I appear to be.
But perhaps most people won't be able to see such a side of me. They only see the mask that I chose to wear, the personality that is altered based on my own perception of how other people want from me.
Who can see beneath the mask? Some. Either I took it off for them, or they took it off for me.

Sad?

Someone commented that I always look sad nowadays. Hmmm so strange I'm not really sad imo, maybe just aloof. Not that I'm not happy to have company, maybe I express it less through facial expressions now. I still feel irrationally happy, nervous, shy, except most of them is masked by a sense of nonchalance.
It is actually good being a spectator ion, it's like watching various species react then u trolololol while other people facepalm or punch spectator ions in an attempt to make it more logical ._.
^ I think really very trolololol leh.

Emotional Taboo - 情感禁忌

This post is for people who are reading my novel (no time to update la and that region of plot is weirdly vague and tangled ie. they don't appear in my world at all)
There is something known as product differentiation, which means in order to be able to compete with the rest of the people to not lose out, you make yourself unique in one way or another. I would believe that everyone is rather unique (well maybe fundamentally similar but how they bring about themselves are all different), and hence there is already a form of product differentiation among them. But well I would see my social circle as having a variety but tends towards the 'nice' side, or at least what I believe it is.
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ANYWAYS, I'm supposed to dedicate this to readers of my novel lol.
Let's assume that the final step to Shiro's 'product differentiation' is called the perfection of his 情感禁术, which allows him to completely separate all these spells from the 'forbidden art' series.
What happens is this: most of the most powerful spells are automatically classified under 'forbidden art'. In order to cast one properly, one has to declare the usage of such a spell, which is usually by saying 禁术 before the name of the spell. (ie. one has to announce that he is going to cast a forbidden art to his opponent) If one did not follow such a rule, the penalty will be both a dramatically reduced effect of the spell used, as well as a large life energy damage to the user.
The obvious first flaw for such a rule is that the opponent will be given some time to think of a way to retaliate or defend himself from this forbidden art. The second flaw is that by being classified under 'forbidden art', those who first came up with this rule will be able to abuse it in such ways as to give themselves the advantage. (starez at the Shinigamis)
Hence, what Shiro first did was to come up with a series of spells that draw power from emotions, which he called the Emotional Forbidden Arts, 情感禁术. The last step of this differentiation was to separate them from forbidden arts altogether, so that he is no longer bound by the rule of forbidden arts when he uses these spells. Thus, his spells will belong to his own classification called the Emotional Taboo. 情感禁忌. From there, he is his own monopolist, and he sets the rules for his own spells.
The second part of the above chunk was a sort of retaliation for a certain group of organisms (starez at the Shinigami) for trying to (and successfully) kill him in an attempt to stop his influence, by coming up with his own series of spells which currently have no effective ways of countering.
You just read major spoilers. :P

drift or boundary between dream and reality

I was imagining what would happen after A lvls, when everyone went off for NS, when people get separated, maybe for a long time, maybe for life.
I would write emails probably. Unless it went into spam mails.
But I wonder how long the email would last, cus usually the flame would decrease in intensity over time especially when there's not sufficient fuel to keep it burning.
Moving on, I realised the reason for recent detachment from the real world in general: I managed to create a world of my own, where I can just sink back into and completely forget about everything else. Whenever there's problems that I face, I can just disappear into that world and all the problems are ignored.
As compared to zen people I am very unzen. Actually if I sink back into my world it would seem like I'm zenning, except my mind is not there o.o But nuuuu I don't want to destroy my world yet >.<
Ehehehe world destruction sounds nice, it's like destroying a room to create a new one. That sounds like room 13.

你不说？

Obvious. 和‘你不说’常常放在一起。
就是每当一个人说了什么十分明显的话时，就能以‘你不说’来回应。一方面说明别人说的话很明显不用说，一方面是嘲笑对方那么明显的话干什么说出来？
不过想了想后，觉得有些东西就算是‘你不说’但还是得说的。想想看，其实现实生活中几乎所有的对话只要个人理解能力比较强的话都是‘你不说’的。不过我们明明知道很明显的话，还是会说出来，原因在于这是一种保持人与人沟通的一种方法。就算是知道对方想说什么，说出来比较能够让对方知道你理解他所说的话，比静静地不出声，最后来一句‘你不说’要好得多吧。
此外，不是所有的‘你不说’都是‘你不说’的。对一个人来说可能十分的明显，对另一个人来说可能就感觉不到。
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“今天我心情不好。”
“你不说？你的心情我当然能感觉到了。”
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但是他的心情每个人都能感觉到吗？
对他来说，能够感觉到他的心情的人是一种幸福，因为在不沟通的情况下就能够来一句“你打起精神来啊。”
所以我觉得，在没有与一些人达到这个境界时，把明显的话说出来，暂且可以更好的交流。
所以‘你不说’往往是我的口头禅，也往往是别人用在我身上的一句话。

Detach

Recently had this sense of detachment from the world. A feeling as though there's nothing that matters anymore. (Which is not good due to many many reasons)
Maybe I need to have more perks in my life to keep me alive and happy.
I should just secure my emotional attachments already :/
Yeah that's right restart convos with people then :)

Pseudo-good

I find it kind of useless to be pseudo-good at a lot of things, because most of them are useless anyways o.o
Probably because those do not contribute significantly to the society and only provide self-fulfillment.
I should just buy an island and stay there or something.

18

I celebrated my birthday yesterday. It was, well, awesome haha.
Brain too dead to think about new stuff to write, so this is filler :P

Kack (or however a certain random person in ISYF pronounce cake)

Wishing domi, pseudo god-daughter and her future PM sister a very happy birthday!
And domi all the best for tmr's shooting competition. Do your best and no regrets :D NOW GO AND SLEEP.
In the mean time I shall mug for my org syn H3.
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After today's PE, I got abrasion on my left foot, bruise on my left knee and cramp on my left leg. Oh nuuuu I'm going to die from cancer D: So good right. If I gg-ing from cancer my close friends you better spend my last moments with me :P
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On another note, thank you to chingy, yvette, jiaching and chenghao for being my PW group member for last year :D I guessed our hard work put into late night chionging and last minute editing pulled off haha. All the best for getting the rest of your As for A levels then :)

relapsing childhood

I had this sudden urge to read The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupery.
Probably because some part of my memories stirred and I suddenly felt like listening to the little prince soundtracks I used to listen to when I was in primary school.
(this is the link cus I can't download them anywhere anymore D: http://www.xiami.com/album/396604)
I remember the time when my favourites were Wish a Wish and its music box version. Seems like that still never change.
And this afternoon I reread The Little Prince, and I discovered new things behind those lines. The story is no longer of a prince's random travels all over the universe and meeting weird grown-ups, ultimately landing on Earth (although that element still retained).
Despite the Little Prince being the child-like person he represents, with his imagination and stuff, there's still this highly logical part of him. Or perhaps it's called highly pragmatic.
There is this section when he befriended (or tamed) a fox, and when it's time for him to leave, the fox was extremely sad about his departure.
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"It is your own fault," said the little prince. "I wished you no harm but you wanted to me to tame you."
"Yes, indeed," said the fox.
"But you are going to cry!" said the little prince.
"That is so," said the fox.
"Then it has not helped you in any way!"
"It has helped me," said the fox, "because of the colour of the wheat fields." (which reminds the fox of the little prince's golden hair)
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"Goodbye," he said.
"Goodbye," said the fox. "Now here is my secret. It is very simple. It is only with one's heart that one can see clearly. What is essential is invisible to the eye."
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Yes indeed, what is essential needs to be felt with the heart.
Why then, does the most important thing has to be felt by something so delicate?
I'm usually happy. But I can feel other people's sadness. I can link my heart to theirs, and I feel similar kind of pain as them. Maybe this kind of pain is necessary, just that I'm still inside my delightful little bubble, not exposed to the harsh reality. I would really want to mend broken hearts around, perhaps I lack the ability to do so.
During council elections there was this question: "If you can have any superhuman power, what would it be?"
Despite being an observer I thought about the question (I always do).
My power-hungry self would pick something along the line of 'darkness manipulation', 'time manipulation' or 'power negation', but I decided to choose 'illusion manipulation' instead.
Because then everyone can live inside a delightful little bubble, and broken hearts would be mended. That is how I escape from reality, and make other people escape as well.

Yumeki's memory manipulation

While I continue stalling a certain jingyi by not saying anything about the last character's physical description (while providing random chemical description such as carbon, hydrogen, oxygen, phosphorus, nitrogen)
Ok Yumeki-chan, you should at least noe how memory manipulation works before you start doing the memory manipulation. So I shall try to explain in my way how 'memory' works, at least in my world.
You can assume memory to be like tons and tons of data, and the inner mind of a normal human being is somewhat between an organised library and disorganised piles of books.
People with minds that are like perfectly organised libraries are those who have photographic memory and can thus extract and store as much information as they want. On the other hand, people with minds more similar to piles of books would find it hard to recall past events as they are probably covered by more recent events. ie. pieces of paper hidden under piles of books. This assumption is of course that people remember everything that they have experienced and can always recall them, just that they need a long time for more distant past.
So hence when we say that Yumeki used her ability to erase someone's memory, it could mean one of the following three things:
1. She moved that piece of information into a deeper end of the pile of books. Ie. she made a certain memory harder to recall because it seems so distant (when in actual fact it might not be the case).
2. She locked that piece of information away. You can pretend that she took some top secret files and locked them into a box. And the only way to open that box is using a specific key. This specific key would be something that 'trigger' a person to suddenly remember something as we can see during certain drama series. For example the trigger can come in forms of someone's face, description of a place, someone's name, etc.
3. She destroyed that piece of information. Very easy, just like you burn away the piece of paper so that a person can never remember whatever happened because it was no longer stored in his mind as memory.
Also, when we say that Yumeki used her ability to create a false memory, it could mean one of the following three things as well:
1. She takes an existing piece of information, correction tape it (see it as an analogy), and write new things onto it. Hence such way of creating false memory leaves a mark.
2. She takes an existing piece of information, hide it somewhere in the deep piles of books, takes a new piece of paper, writes new things into it and place it at the original place. Such a way can cause confusion when the person realises that he seem to have two different recollections of the same events.
3. She takes an existing piece of information, burn it, take a new piece of paper, write something onto it and put it at the original place. That one is really flawless memory change.
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Ok Yumeki-chan now you noe about how memory manipulation works you can start training ^^ I shall not tell you how to recollect other people's memories and use it for yourself yet. :P

lost

It is when I start filling the profiling thing then I start to realise
1. How noob I was and am.
2. How not committed I was and am.
3. How lost I was and am.

Stab

I just got another random bruise wtf -.-
Anyways, these few days are for intense and intensive mugging. Shall reserve the whole of Thursday on mugging chemistry. Hopefully the my supposed 'tutees' are doing fine.
I remember last March holidays was rather life-changing for me, events happened and bonds were broken and reformed. While this holidays everything was just spent on mugging ... As of now I shall consider this as an unavoidable part of JC2 life, which gets worse as days go by and everyone starts preparing for the A levels.
Just realised that my chemo CD contains Clayden as well as Jerry. (*drools rainbow) Kind of late to start reading them again haiz.
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I shall actually say something more than just randomness.
I'm starting to believe that everyone has a private square of some sort. They only differ in terms of how obvious this square is, and how the person treats people outside the square.
Treating people outside the private square can differ. I've seen people making everyone seem welcome, I've seen people ignoring people outside the square, I've seen people rejecting people outside the square. I probably belong somewhere along the 2nd and 3rd group. Don't get me wrong, I'm still open to people, but it seems very hard for any single person to make it into my private square now, as though the atom cannot allow for expanded octet if you put it in a way. There IS a difference between a normal friend and a close friend.
Thing is I put most of my time and effort on a small group of people. In return I put all my emotional attachment onto this group of people as well. Breaking any single of them is equated to breaking a part of myself. They are kept very strongly, and very selfishly, and very selflessly.
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Oh and just recently one of my tutors talked a bit of outside the lesson stories. It's some information that throughout the tutor's teaching career in HC, there's been quite a number of cases where an alumnus (I assume anyone who already graduated is considered as an alumnus?) took their life for seemingly no reason. It's disturbing if not thought-provoking, to imagine someone appearing to live life normally, and suddenly jumped down or something, and people around him or her would be wondering why for the rest of their lives. Apart from showing how delicate human life is, it also kind of says how unobservant people are, or maybe or dis/mistrusting these people who took their lives were.
I don't really see a point in suicide, because usually problems can be solved. The only logical reason (which seems illogical), is that there's nothing else in life that the person can find attachment to. Probably that's the only reason good enough for one to take his or her own life. Imagine if you have no one or nothing to live for, and you can't find a reason to live for yourself, life would seem, dead. That's the only reason that would drive a normal person to suicide perhaps.
Well the 'good' thing is, I would never do anything as stupid. I love life too much to lose it for whatever reason or lack of reason there is. I love all my possessions, I love all the people whom I know. I love my family and friends. I love my attachments. As long as they remain with me, I will not leave. Which also explains why I fear death. (But I suppose as you grow older you start to 看得开 since you have less and less attachments available)
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Ah well, forgive me for my abrupt ending. Going to sleep and wake up to mug later. Nites people :)

Life of a Poison Dart Frog

I spent around 15 minutes fantasising what it would be like to live a life of a poison dart frog.
In case you're wondering, I'm talking about the golden poison frog, Phyllobates terribilis, which has the ability to secrete a variety of neurotoxins, one of which is batrachotoxin, the most deadly non-protein neurotoxin ever known (with enough secreted by one frog to kill two adult elephants). But that's only for information, I digress.
Anyways, the interesting thing about golden poison frog is that they are rather social creatures living in groups of 10 to 15 and like to interact with each other, since the only creatures that won't die from their mere touch are themselves. So I was actually wrong about not being able to hug people, assuming we are the same species o.o
Life as a golden poison frog would be quite interesting. I start off by living in a super humid place (which I probably enjoy), hop everywhere to find food and look at stuff, as well as flaunt my warning colour to anything that comes near me and (occasionally) kill things by being touched by them. All I need to watch out for is random natives that cook me alive to make poison darts. Other than that poison dart frog is probably one of the few animals that doesn't have to fear natural predators, because that's almost non-existent. (Apart from a type of snake that is tolerant to the toxin)
Yeah I guess such a life is not bad. And the type of scenario inside a rain forest is not bad also, good to live in.
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Anyways back from fantasising, these few days are obviously meant for mugging for blocks. Despite the fact that it's not counted it is still important for me to know how well I can perform. Which is why I'm actually going to mug chemistry this time to see how well I can do. (as well as to tell other people that I'm not as noob as they think, I'm just lazy)
Talking about chemistry, gc is probably the student who's best at organic chem as of now. Which means even if I do mug organic chem I can't reach the same standard as him. So while trying to approach his status of godliness I shall do 'product differentiation' by maintaining my edge at inorg chem. hoho

GP

Today marks the first block test of the year aka GP!
I think I did my essay better than usual and compo worse than usual, so the score should balance out o.o

It's March

I just sort of realised that it's already March.
That equates to 'start going into A level mugging mode if you want to get a scholarship'.
Despite not knowing what kind of scholarship to apply for, my current belief is that as long as they see your godlike grades at A levels they would offer it / them to you.
The thing is I can't be as lax as an average student in school, or even an average student in SMTP. Reason being I'm not a Singaporean, and I'm not a PRC under scholarship, so I have to work harder than both in order to have a better university life.
Hence,
1. Start preparing for A levels.
2. Make JSS the only CIP I would be going for.
3. If there's still time, continue with the tuition (and hope that it's useful).
4. Private square.
I had love to have way more time this year, but seems like that's not the case. Haiz.

Why I think I am a lousy friend

I think I wrote some similar things about this in short sentences in my diary. I guess it is time to write a bit of it and post it online.
What happened today was, my mom took out my ang baos and decided to save all the money into my bank account. And so when she started counting, she realised that 5 ang baos were empty. (looks at Valentine's Day)
Was reprimanded for my free-style spending. She sort of reached the conclusion that my friends are more or less superficial.
Untrue. I know how they are to me and how I am to them.
But she just asked this question: How many people gave you something for Valentines.
I did not count.
And then she continued to ask about how many birthday presents I have received last year.
oh no.
And yet why did I spend so much on gifts? On treating people?
That made me a lousy friend. I am unable to convince others that I'm actually good friends with many people. People do not see a tangible form of reciprocation, then they question the existence of such a thing.
Maybe because I tend to overwhelm people. But I want to be treated like a friend, not a probable servant. I hope that people know that I'm NOT an anything-also-can-anything-also-give person.
There is one major thing that affects how I think, and there is one major thing that affects how I work.
One is called doubt, the other is called guilt.
Sleep in insecurity then.

Recollection

Despite we all seeing each other everyday, I missed quite a number of you. Most likely it because we've never talked about all kinds of things for quite a long time. Talking makes me feel closer to you.
I'm still afraid of losing. I'm still having an idealistic view about my life.
Hence, I still kept the private square.

care

When I see you online: yay you're finally home.
When I see you go offline: yay finally you can go and sleep.

There is a difference between zen and giving up.
I think I may have walked into the worse zone of the two.

情人。结

Woah I made such a pro looking title for the post.
Anyways today is Valentine's / Friendship Day. Happy day to all :)
Spent a whooping budget on the purchase of chocolate lololol. One of the few occasions when I decide to bleed my savings to death I guess.
Let's see if you can read me properly or not.
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What about fanyi
'you're so nice.' 'so nice.' 'fanyi so nice.' 'wah so nice.' 'so nice.'

ha ha

nostalgia

Saw the ISYF photos uploaded on facebook (again).
Suddenly all the memories came flushing back. Ah those times when everything you do, you know what you're doing it for, who you're doing it for, and how much effort you will put in and the result you expect to get. The times when things are stress-free, or perhaps relatively stress-free. I don't mind going through ISYF all over again just for that one week of enjoyment :)
But I guess everything has to come to an end, especially after the ISYF AAR last Saturday.
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I hate to have to see the ending. I hate to have to come to a full stop. Why can't the world just be full of commas, instead of heartless full stops dotted over the place, to show that everything stops at some point and a new chapter will begin.
I would like a chapter to go on forever, and yet a new chapter can begin. Such greed.

Wait

I feel happy and worried for you.
If waiting is all it needs, it should last.
If it was a mere facade, what will happen then?
Life is funny, how then, shall I wander about, and manipulate the subconscious?
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My wallet lies with blood all around it, as I ruthlessly bled away $40++ on something made from cocoa sugar and fats. Shall start writing letters later :)
Doubt I would receive anything in return, but I know there are always other ways of reciprocation.

Irony of a dative bond

The greater the happiness, the greater the hurt.
The atom experiences irrational happiness around the atom that it is forming a dative bond with.
The atom experiences extreme insecurity as though the dative bond will be broken at any time and the other atom will just bond with a more electronegative one.
It is NOT good when you are residing in the emo zone for no reason, and it really really hurts to remain in the emo zone because you could do nothing.
On a separate matter, I just got another random bruise on my leg -.-
I sort of disallowed to go out for anything non-compulsory from now on so that I can focus on my A levels better. That's ... sad. Nvm at least I can still give chem tuition :)

The cycle

It's as though the cycle of one's life is repeating itself again. Or maybe it's just the vicious cycle of one year that moved on the the next year.
If one is able to transfer one's time to another, I would willingly transfer my time spent on stoning to other people so that they can have perhaps extra 2 hours of sleep?
But other than that, what can a non medic do when he sees a person lying injured on the floor half dead and half dying? Call the ambulance? Assure him that he is going to survive? Run away? Cry? Reminds me of how some dramas show relatives of this torture victim getting tortured before their eyes and they can only watch.
Alternatively, I should find something that I can do, although it almost seems like some forms of 'help' are auto-rejected to be useless.
Why do we do things? Logically it's for self benefits. Twist the reason however you like and it's still self benefit to some extent. In that case do you want me to say it's 你自找的? Of course not, because we know it's inevitable, and there's already enough pressure at the moment.
There should be a way that allows a person to just vanish from the society for a while and come back later. Maybe it's called self-delusional bubble.

Koishi

I remembered some time ago I talked about Satori. Koishi (古明地 恋) is her younger sister. She sort of escaped the fate of being feared by everyone for her mind reading ability by sealing off her 3rd eye, only to gain the ability to manipulate the subconscious. Btw her spell cards are based on psychology and some biology. Hence I suspect she majors in psychology and minors in biology is university trololol.

And here is her picture! The Closed Eyes of Love! (Let's hope I don't get sued for posting a copyrightable picture)

Recently fall in love with her theme, cus of it's chaotic nature. Flandre's theme is chaotic but it does not give the adrenaline rush which Koishi's theme does. So now I frequently listen to Hartmann's Youkai Girl to stay awake.

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It's interesting, manipulation of the subconscious. I think some people are actually capable of that, through certain words and actions provoke others to reveal their true nature, or at least part of it. With such ability I guess you get to know people more without them realising. So basically you read mind without them knowing that you can, assuming everything is subconscious.

I have poor control of my Id. My Superego comes into play randomly (such as at night before I sleep, alternatively Id can do that as well). My Ego is coping badly in balancing Id and Superego. It's like either one of them would go into hiding while the other one is out. Alternatively when they wage full-scale war you would see me randoming.

Trying to be a Koishi. I wonder how she suppressed her own Id, Ego and Superego. Or maybe she just doesn't care anymore.

nites ppl.

bruise

I am very annoyed that I get bruises so easily. The bruise part is ok except that my mom would start thinking of weird theories such as I lack iron or I have low platelet count and start feeding me random food such as honey and iron pills.
The nice thing about bruising is that a few days after the bruise developed pressing it feels so gooooood. :P

self-provoked tearing

Watching touching videos to encourage my eyes to water more. Such masochistic tendencies haha.
Sometimes it's not good to be lucky enough to not have anything that make you cry, or numb enough to not cry easily. Because after some time you slowly lose the ability to cry out loud. Hence self-provocation is sometimes good.

Horcrux

Maybe Voldemort was tad bit insecure and lonely, that's why he severed his soul and put pieces of them into other objects.
Maybe I am like Voldemort in the sense that part of my soul is severed at put into other people.
The reason why I am not going to 扎根 now is because my future is still a question mark. At least I have to wait for university life before I decide where to settle down for good. Maybe I would come back to Singapore again (if I went overseas that is).
But you know, horcruxes are not that easily destroyed. They would remain for a long long time..
Time to make more horcruxes. (Insert Voldemort laughter here)

hihihihi

I created a private square. Now it's time for me to destroy it with my own hands.
But what will remain in the end will still be a square, except that it has holes to let air in.

Chinese New Year

Happy CNY to everyone out there. Hope you get lots of ang bao, good food without being overheated, enough fun and rest, so that when you come back from the break you get to face the horrors of school more positively :)

ISYF - close

Today marks the end of ISYF for the facilitators (yesterday was the end for participants)
What seemed like 5 days for the participants is actually more than months of preparations for the facilitators, hence I think doing a long reflection about what I experienced during ISYF would be necessary.
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1. Identity
Just for clarification, I am part of the SRC activity comm, which is mainly in charge of SRC activities, school tour and cultural hour. I would say that we did a pretty good job for ISYF. Despite some problems faced during the preparation period (not being able to find ideas, wood turns to plastic), I think there's no problem at all during the actual day of SRC activity. Actually I'm still very surprised how in the world could the reaction with luminol could create such a 'wow' from the participants; personally I thought my experiments were pretty boring.. I suppose our purpose of making the experiments fun for the participants have succeeded, so that's something to be happy about.
For school tour, there's seriously not enough time for teams to finish touring all the planned locations in one hour before going for nobel masterclass. For my route I've covered pretty much everything apart from the library and the canteen (which is actually unnecessary). Based on observation I think my group members are not really interested in school tour as much as other stuff (especially the nobel masterclass that follows) so skipping a few venues would be ok.
Cultural hour is on time most of the time, except for the last cultural hour where one school have to be moved to a later time (which is actually ok because there's a gigantic buffer time for that). It's quite interesting getting to know the cultural backgrounds of the different participants, although I suspect a wikipedia tour would pretty much give the same things.
Also, I'm one of the group leaders for Gemma (wooots). It's an awesome group, with very high people, very talkative people, very photoloving people, very phototaking people. It's a wonderful experience to be in the group leader of Gemma together with Jeya, the members are all very cooperative, and high at the correct times. The only bad thing is that my group was somehow invisible to other groups' eyes because we've never gotten bombed before. (Dam lol when the bomb goes from one group to another and back again and we were just standing there and stoning)
Other than being part of SRC activity comm, I became the member of the unofficial saikang warrior comm (with rayray being chairman and johnny being vice-chairman) It's actually fun to do all the saikang throughout the day, running from one place to another, carry stuff, doing other comm's activities. It gets me exposed to many new things (such as using a real camera to take photos after such a long time), and meet a lot of different people, to the extend that some might thought that I belong to another comm when I'm not (admins lololol), or that I know the schedule more than other normal facilitators (more like cus of the ray yan aura). The funny thing is that I was the carpark usher and the door holder for ISYF, so basically I'm the one who get to meet all the VIPs and guests (barring nobel laureates) before anyone else. Ironic seeing that I'm a foreigner by law :P
The thing about ISYF is that every facilitator is expected to be able to do another facilitator's work if he / she was too busy to do it. But in the end it still went down to a few people doing most of the saikang work (maybe he will talk about it later) and having almost everyone (that includes participants) throwing all the problems they face at these few people. (lol boarding school shower got problem) The only good thing is that you get to do a lot of things / rubbish and get to know more things than anyone else.

2. Fails

I kept myself busy partly for the experience, partly to see more people and partly to keep myself awake. For SRC activity the fails I had were unable to get people immediate attention, and forgetting to provide hydrogen peroxide for participants. The rest of the problems faced during my chemistry section (such as luminol glowing for more than 2 tubes) can be summed up to be 'SPA fail'. Other than that there are stuff like leaving out one educator's name when doing name tags (easy to push this blame to someone else but I must admit I was not careful). Also, I tend to be a happy-go-lucky person, so I almost never plan ahead of time, which is why I always write down my role for the next day on the previous night instead of planning everything down and just print it once. But I guess that was fine, cus despite me going o.o? sometimes things run very smoothly.

3. Gains
These 5 days had been a learning journey for me. For myself, I learnt how to plan experiments properly with a lot of restrictions provided (now thinking of it I think those restrictions are important, seeing how participants have major SPA fail despite my instructions on the screen), to get all the materials prepared beforehand and double-check it with the lab tech (I should have prepared them myself but Mdm Xia was very kind and prepared all the solutions for me :/)
Other than that, I get to enjoy the life of a saikang warrior, get to crash E2/01 every night to hear jokes and be a joke, get to lead a group (rather successfully), get to eat more hotel food than normal people can (ninjaing vegetable and halal table), get to know part of the whole infrastructure of the ISYF committee instead of only knowing my own comm's stuff, get to hear people's problems, get to be a gentleman-in-waiting, get to learn how to dance Gee, get to enjoy air-con rooms everyday.
It's one of those events which I would never forget.

4. Random trivia
This section is for abstract trivia that happened during ISYF. Since it's random, it's trivia, and it's abstract, hence it comes in bits and pieces.
Some may wonder how I manage to stay alive and hale and hearty during the 8 days (remember that we already stayed in boarding school on 13 Jan), my hypothesis has been proven correct: hugs, jokes, walking around, milo. Although I may add in another variable known as 人品 because seriously, I faced almost no problems at all.
While many people seemed to be very stressed and down as the days go by, I have always been in the 0 stress mode throughout the ISYF period. To be honest, I felt no sense of urgency / anxiety / pressure at all for ISYF. If you thought there were times I seemed to express those feelings, then I suppose it's cus I'm acting (subconsciously). One good thing about running around is that you have the chance to escape from random rubbish at your original location, but of course you may run into rubbish on the way but that depends on your 人品 already.
Despite each day being a long day, it's soothing to be able to grab instances to exchange a few words with close friends, laugh at jokers and jokes, wink and cough when something that contains 'private information which only we know' is brought up, and of course, contact. I can say it is very addictive, especially when the other one doesn't mind.
I took 2 days to learn how to dance Gee, which I performed during cultural hour and dinner & dance. My already negative reputation would have gone even more negative by now. But that's ok, because I don't really care about reputations of stereotypical guys or things like that. (although man pride is important) I conclude by saying that Gee is all about shaking your butt and acting cute, which of course with me doing it left many people emotionally and mentally scarred for life. oops.
禁术-友谊锁链. Made quite a lot of friends during ISYF, especially among the facilitators. Commitment wise I would have to see first, shall talk about it some other time.

5. Conclusion
All in all, ISYF was a great success, and I had many new experiences being a facilitator, which mainly came from my running around as the saikang warrior in training. It gave me plenty of exposure to both the outside world (participants) and inside world (committee). Would miss the feeling of organising such an event.

Group Gemma! (mafia style)

SRC Comm!

Random guy facils lolol

ISYF

Today is the last day of ISYF, shall write reflection later. Now go sleep first.
On a side note, I feel that my method of staying alive and hale and hearty has been relatively successful, apart from one of the days when I need to 补觉 for 1.5 hours cus I'm missing one of the 4 criteria to maintain liveliness.
Oh, and I learnt how to dance SNSD's Gee, though I suppose a guy dancing a dance that requires majorly acting cute and shaking butt would be ... disturbing. nvm nites~

ISYF - rush

Currently experimenting with a method to stay hale and hearty for the 5 days of ISYF despite having minimal hours of sleep. Amazing race is tmr, shall make Gemma a super enthu group. Can already see people of potential enthu leadershipping, so I can basically slack behind.
Anyways, if my method of stayed awake actually works, it shall be called: hugs, jokes, forever walking around and milo.

Chemistry

Got back the results for Chemistry Olympiad just now. Apparently I underestimated my 人品 and got a bronze medal, which is basically equivalent to a 安慰奖 or something. Ah well shall not bother about it since it's already over. Focus more on studies and my coming H3, from how the professor phrased it in the email it seems pretty hard, even need to buy a textbook or something.
ISYF nobel forum dry run later, being a car park usher, I shall find some way to uh do my job properly.
ISYF in a few days time, excited! Hopefully it will be successful this year, and no major screw-ups.
On a side note, I just realised all my tutors this year only teach our 1 class (GP, Bio, Chem, Econs, Maths not sure yet) Probably gives the tutors a lot more time for going through answers and revision.

School starts

For the first time in 2 years I have so little confidence for my research project wtf.
NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU WHY SCHOOL STARTS SO FAST I NEED TIME TO CHIONG WORK ARGHOCHNCMGKACGMKSBIC.
Apart from that see you guys uh, tmr or something.
Lucky I dun need to worry about ninja lecture tests, yet.

Resolution

I thought my New Year resolution would be obvious enough, but if it was not obvious enough:
1. Do well for A levels (which is of course all As)
2. Make ISYF successful.
3. Spend the last year with my (good / close) friends.
4. Finish making my chem notes.
5. 做好人, as long as it does not conflict with 1 to 4.
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This year would be gone in a very short time, so I'm definitely going to treasure it. It's probably time to be discriminatory mm.

Quotes of 2011

Hihi. As promised here's the quotes I've collected for 2011. Ranging from lame to retarded to sick and funny, all names shall be censored for privacy (erhem). It's amusing to laugh at your own epicness sometimes :P
'Just cut it off la, it's useless anyway.' - with regard to breast cancer
'There there.' - original and copyrighted?
'I expected them to strip.' - referring to bus driver's strike
'时间飞到了天上，然后被雷劈死了。' - lol time flies
'firetruck, pool cleaner, ice cream machine, tractor, air con.' - rotom!
'He has that sex face' - :O
'Put your handphone back to your wallet.'
'He was hugging it (teddy bear).' 'Oh shit I'm not going to hug it anymore.'
'You are content if you eat food, you are content when you have shelter underneath your head.' - underneath your head
'They (seniors) come in all shapes and sizes'
'I read (manga) until question....' - do too much homework
'If I look stupid he looks dumb too.' - nah both of you are bimbos
'sian fanyi has degenerated from confused to retarded :O' - >.<
'You know what's the secret (to look young)? It's not SKII, it's to give birth to two children, then thye will drive you crazy. You have to run after them, entertain them, you will be exercising all day long.'
'Tomato, lettuce, cheese. The perfect sandwich.' 'Who's in the middle?' 'Lettuce' (sudden realisation) 'OH MY GOD.'
'Xiangyu is mine' - sry I can't censor the subject o.o
'Can we cross multiply...' 'NO' 'I didn't even finish my question :(' - math lecture was interesting
'Are you confused? You look married.'
'Ok I'm awake now. Apparently I'm the sleepy one.' - math lecture was interesting 2
'Ooooh! That one is Jie Hui's, don't touch!!' - we all know the subject of this
'Ok I know that too (the song Friday), it's so disturbing.' - it IS catchy..
'I dunno...I thought I was a girl too...' - face it you are the hottest and nicest guy in our class anyways o.o
'There are creatures like that. Oh, did I just say that?' - referring to strict econs markers
'For example your neighbour grows corn, you grow chicken.'
'I kept a cockroach as a pet. I was desperate.' - while cockroaches run away from me..
'I like killing cockroaches, but I don't like dissecting.' 'Technically dissecting cockroaches is killing it slowly.' 'Oh ok I love it.' - sadistc tendencies~
'Why would his heart pump faster if he sees something that he sees everyday?' - chest hair, but whose?
'Actually did you realise by now that your physics teacher is my husband?' 'HUH? WHAT? OH MY GOODNESS? WHAT? HUH?'
'We were JC schoolmates.' 'AWWWWWWW' 'That's a bad example to discourage students from doing things other than your four H2s in JC.'
'Let's assume that baoxian is an average person, while fanyi is obviously not.'
'I'd rather be a mushroom.' - she accepted her fate
'Eh fanyi don't you dare drop me. If you drop me I'll just stick to the ground.' - we thought fac outing involves carrying people
'She (econs tutor) looks very young. Tell her that.'
'What is this? Carbon caesium chloride sodium chloride. See I can create a new compound just like this. Oh no why am I so random today.' - cus you're a nerd :P
'In some society in Africa, when the young reaches 16, instead of going NS, they go to the ant's nest. Oh I just thought of this by myself.'
'Eh, don't disturb lower life forms (mushroom)' '..What?' - I think someone will argue that mushrooms are higher life forms
'Turn them (people) into food.' 'Zongchen I expected that from Joshua, not you!'
'I think it's (bio prac) inside your bag, it's like so big.'
'(VERY LOVINGLY) Jie hui, jie hui, jie hui.....' 'EH FANYI DUN BLOCK'
'I shall give up on Joshua and move on.'
'You are almost as sick as me.'
'You damn lame eh.'
'I'm 'just' on top of him.'
'There is 'nothing' between Jiehui and I' - not even cloth
'I guess I'm useless, no one ever listens to me.'
'If you are 'I' then I'm autistic' - introversion
'Or you can refer to the Campbell...eh where are all my books arh??'
'Ok, go do it.' 'HUH?? What about your just say no?'
'It (gas syringe) is friction less not frictionless.'
'I'm a firefighter by title.'
'Who 重色轻友?' 'You lah.'
'What sex face?' 'You lah.' -different people btw
'I see more nods on this side (other side start nodding) Nod only when you understand!'
'I love that, teach less learn more.'
'If your friend is sleeping can you wake them up to draw the diagram? You are not being very friendly with them.'
'This (drawing of mushroom) is so lopesided. Can you at least draw it cuter?'
'I'm your greatest obstruction to success.' - haiz pw
'But I like prac.' 'Because you slack mah.'
'I like Mr Tan.'
'I want Ms Tsang. Eh shit! Later Ms Tsang see. Nevermind la I think she know I like her.'
'Imagine they (joshuas) are sick, how will that affect you?' 'They do not affect us.' 'I have obviously chosen the wrong people, everyone is happy when they are sick.'
'Got boyfriend fetch.' 'Creative answer, you will never know.'
'I'm just kidding. No I'm just jealous.'
'What way will Germany have a net surplus (of export).' 'They export a lot of Jews.' 'NEXT.'
'Chingyee country.' 'Mushroom land!' 'Mushroom land is Super Mario what.'
'If we put 'excellent' for everything can we get bonus marks for lecture test?' 'No Kerry, integrity!'
'When you are a foetus in your womb, no I mean your mother's womb.'
'I shall break the bond between you.' - break bond btwn jiehui and jiaching?
'Precaution: don't swallow the chemical.' 'What kind of lame precaution is that? Only fanyi does that.' - nuuu
'Steam fly in your face.' 'Then your cornea drop off.'
'There is no hot guy in our class.' 'Oh I know, chingy.'
'Concentration of water in water is 0.9 gasp.' - I uh am creative
'I would rather have weird scandals with jiehui.'
"'Do you believe in an alternative dimension that exist alongside ours?' What drugs have you all being eating?"
'Awesome!'
'AWWWWWWW'
'Do you think roads grow from the soil?' - development
'Stop making your replication bubble.' - obsessed with balloons
'GG all the way.' 'Can you please keep quiet I'm trying to listen.'
'(jiehui asks a question) Ok let's get someone to answer, Jiaching can you answer for jiehui?' 'AWWWWWWW' 'Eh what did I do?' 'You did something good.'
'(looks at 11S7D family tree) This tree is weird.'
'Sec 1 to 4 I can do none (pull ups). C1 I can do 8.' 'Because of girls right?' 'Because of guys.'
'I officially like Ms Tsang. I officially like Ms Tsang. She so nice...'
'Esther I'm very disappointed with you, I didn't know you are that sick!'
'How do you make a sperm?' 'Uh it's called meiosis.'
'我发现了你就是个萝莉控。'
'Jiaxi can make sperms.' 'Ya lor.'
'Menquan is now a wet pussy. And thamsy wetted him.'
'Who is Kelvin Tan.' - cough our mentor cough
'Don't tell me you wan Sirius.' 'No my crush in Harry Potter is Oliver Wood ok.'
'Because on that day I will be registering my ROM.' 'AWWWWWW'
'The prawn soup should taste very good. (taste) 他妈的 chicken smell too strong.'
'You know guys should eat more prawns, cus it's good for their erhem.' 'Oh no wonder the guys sit at one table cooking prawn soup lah.'
'Joker should not eat too many prawns, otherwise he becomes prawn cracker.' 'Then I can eat you.' - yup 'eat'
'The prawns should leave inside and eat last.' 'Cus ray yan likes rock-solid stuff.'
'You all don't watch 爱? Losers.'
'Maybe it is a trap for those who listen to them and not use the easy method. I shall not fall for your trap Cambridge.'
'Would you prefer mock meat or mushroom?' 'Of course mushroom lah.' 'I know you all prefer me, but it is disturbing.'
'Why not we don't get it (class test result) back today, and spend the time playing hangman?' 'No.'
'She refused to accept my facebook request leh.'
'Ask for help if you need it.' 'Help!'
'I bet your com will not work if it is not something 变态.' - nuuuu my com is awesome
'I don't have assets.'
'Do you think you are going to appreciate unemployment?' ’Appreciate means we like it?' 'No!'
'Is this tutorial?' 'Yes.' 'Ok I dao you.' - rofl dislike ppl who do tutorial early
'See lah I lose mark to uphold the truth.'
'Generally increasing.' 'Ok 1 point, what is the second point?' 'I'm content with 1 mark.'
'Who's Deborah How?' 'The face damn white one.' 'JOSHUA FOO!!' 'Is she pregnant?' 'She's a Miss.' 'She's not pregnant?!' 'I will tell her that you said that.' 'Does she have very fair complexion?' 'Yes, she puts on rather heavy make-up.' 'Like a geisha.' 'You can continue recording.'
'Seriously, xiangyu is cute.'
'Oh you don't play Farmville. Losers!'
'Homosexuality happens in jail.' 'This is the fallacy of idiocy.'
'Yes Kerry.' 'You cannot always call from the same group.' 'You cannot always say the same answer.'
'Kerry, why you so noob, keep falling asleep.'
'I don't know. Oh did you see that ant?' 'Red herring!'
'Ok fanyi.' 'B.' 'B, baoxian issit?' 'AWWWWW'
'Look at my face, serious ah! (laughs)'
'Cus I'll only be seeing you twice (next week)' 'Huh why?' 'Cus your GP tutor wants to have that lessons.' 'AWWWW'
'(Desperately and longingly) Where's Jia Wei?'
'Are you waiting for Jia Ching?' 'No.' 'But we sang 'you belong with him' two times!'
'Who has done your essays?' 'No one will ever do essays.' '(someone raises hand) NO don't raise your hand.'
'I love Ms Tsang.'
'I'm officially issuing you a challenge. The challenge is to crash Bio O and get scolded.'
'You know which school Ms Tsang is from? You don't know? Do you know how old she is? You don't know?'
'Baoxian is tormenting me enough... (sees me writing) no no no baoxian is very nice.'
'Chenghao, why are you becoming naughty?'
'Fanyi I prefer your 小妹妹.'
'Jiaching you proliferate with who?!' 'I proliferate with...what the hell.'
'Chingyee it's not even gay porn why are you reading it?' - pokemon manga is addictive you know o.o
'Maybe you will exist in an alternate reality.' ' Are you on drugs?'
'You have error carried forward in Physics because it shows that you have problems with your maths not your physics.' - explains why there's no error carried forward for maths, blah
'Turtle.' 'Yes m'am.' 'You are very 欠扁 right now.'
'I made such a funny pun just now.' 'Oh my god I did it again.' - my name is funny o.o
'How many of you have done your inflation tutorial? Wahh that's good there are two!'
'I love the lab.' - Im surprised thamsy said this
'Why you wetting me? Thamsy likes to wet people.' - tsk tsk
'Triangular theory of love.' '三角恋.' 'ERHEM FANYI ERHEM' 'Wut.'
'Problem-solving? I have enough of PW.'
'Lucky Esther never came back with a German accent.'
'You are not innocent, you are ignorant.'
'When you drop down you die.' - only one person is capable of making jokes with regard to drop down bar in websites
'Poking is mine.' - fine domi
'You go to guys still ok.' - preference of scandals
'I love PW!' - I will also say this next year.
'我是大叔控.'
'It's the guys who are moving about, chionging for the specific sites.'
'Wah, this primary five class.' - 11S7D primary 5 class XD
'Pikachu h**ping Pikachu.' 'That will be such an electrifying experience.'
'See Jiaching did his tutorial, he's the model student.' 'Because he's the bio rep.' 'Xiangyu also did his.' 'Because he top in bio.' 'Jiehui also did his.' 'Uh cus he's jiaching's wife.' 'Han Wee did too.' 'Because he's a mugger.' 'See Huiqi did also.' 'Uh you can see the pattern.'
'Oh yeah hor L is current, I remember now.'
'Benzene is 苯, 竹字头下面一个本, oh shit that's 笨.' - T.T
'Why all the smart people live at Chua Chu Kang?' 'I dun live there.'
'Playfulness is one of my strengths.'
'Chingy 你还少一个.' 'HUH我全部都切了！'
'NYANI?!' - chem o..
'I don't like maths.' - gc I also dun like
'Fanyi, stop it, I'm pure. Even though I'm horny cus I just played with my wife.'
'Did you jizz on your wife?' 'No, I never reach climax yet.'
'I want to remain pure and innocent.' - not in this class
'How about five parliament members and your mom?' 'Oh parliament members not important.' - weighing the importance of mom and parliament members
'I like to play war games, such as counterstrike.' 'No wonder so violent.'
'I'll marry KOI. It's sweet and chewy.' 'But it's not a rock.' 'Aiya got rock get rock, got KOI get KOI lor.'
'切这里，切那里，切切切。'
'I'm going to taint your mind, fill it with so much stuff that you will regret it.' - I think your threat doesn't work on people who tend to self-censor
'You want do pratical?' - on...?
'If you suddenly hear a girl scream it must be fanyi.'
'SL. Service Learning. Who service who?'
'Jiaching is the best.'
'GP is the time for relaxing.'
'Why are you all sitting together? This looks dubious.'
'I can reach it (top of screen) ok.' 'Are you sure?'
'Can you give us hints for promos?' 'First hint is it is not easy. Second you must study hard. Thirdly you must study very hard.'
'What's your surname again?' 'Cao.'
'龟头小男孩。'
'Fanyi's scream is worse than a girl.'
'The hot cleavage thing.' - oxidative cleavage o.o
'谁可以resist.'
'My hair very stiff, just like ... (looks down)'
'I heard my name. 谁在叫这么好听的名字？'
'I used to be straight until I came to this class.'
'Ah!' 'Joshua don't bully xiangyu, pick someone of your own size!' 'Dun have.' 'Ah!' 'Xiangyu you also dun bully joshua, pick someone of your own size!' 'Dun have.'
'Joshua you should copy down the answer.' 'I'll borrow later.' 'How are you sure he'll lend.' 'I'll borrow this.' 'How are you sure he'll lend?' 'Then I'll steal.'
'Who's your favourite couple in this class?' 'But I don't know any couple in this class.' 'There's Jiehui and Jiaching only.'
'I have sex with him every night, but I wear a condom and he doesn't, so who has it (STD)?' 'Depends on which hole you talking about.'
'你的华文成绩都是泡老师泡出来的。' - wut my chinese is pro ok
'Kerry yuo're supposed to do your PW not do Jiaching.'
'Why you forever so cool Jiaching, I want to be like you.'
'Sappy hopeless romantic bleeding heart perfect boyfriend.'
'You just got poh-ed!'
'I'm so pure and innocent!'
'We should start a snail rights movement!'