nvm I shall post this soundtrack before I sleep in case I forgot where to find it on youtube lolz.
nites ppl.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Tuition
Is considering giving free chem tuition soon. Maybe it can help people with improving their chem grades for promos. Since I am 'relatively' free, relative in this sense is when I compare to 神s around me who are so committed until I think about it also wan emo that kind.
But cus I'm a noob myself, hence I also need go home and mug for other subjects. Hence I would probably give the tuitions during my breaks. Hence, physics people erhem.
Interested people can tell me :D
p.s. Chem score higher than me = go away u dun need my tuitions.
But cus I'm a noob myself, hence I also need go home and mug for other subjects. Hence I would probably give the tuitions during my breaks. Hence, physics people erhem.
Interested people can tell me :D
p.s. Chem score higher than me = go away u dun need my tuitions.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Tests again
There are 3 tests next week, ZOMG! Ie. chem, econs, bio. >.< While I'm still doing my EOM poster.
Music music, music controls my life. And hence here's nice music yay.
Music music, music controls my life. And hence here's nice music yay.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Life is a million problems contained by a net of friendships
Rawr maths class test was >.< ie. I-shall-fail-with-flying-colours-such-as-single-digit-scores. But NO WORRIES, because this post is not centred around emoing about maths class test. Emoing kills brain cells remember?
This post is dedicated to a certain someone (maybe I should start giving ambiguous nicknames for other people so that 'a certain someone' only refers to one at a time) who is wondering about life. So here's my small take on what is life.
Actually the title of the post summarises everything, so the rest is just elaborations.
Firstly, there is no such thing as a meaningless life. For every action that you took in your life, you create a ripple. This ripple can be big or small, and thus the number of people it can affect varies. It can even be seen that the ripple is like a signal, seeking out foreign objects which might respond to the small disturbance. Every action contains an intention to seek friendship, for a willing someone to respond to your action with his or hers. That's the start of a friendship isn't it?
Friendship itself is a beautiful thing. Good friends come when you need them the most, walk with you out of a problem without asking for much in return. In life, reliance on friends more is a good thing. It helps when things get too rough for yourself to cope.
I remember how our friendship first started. It's really the quite classic example of the start of a friendship. You are the first person to help me with putting away all the chem practical files after chem pracs one fine day. That's the start of our friendship :D
In the end life is still up to you, do you want to 撒网 or 钓鱼? What is the most important things to you now? What do you want to do in the future? There is no wrong answer, everything is a choice.
And today, the moment I see how you play I know you emoing alr. I'm not sure what you are emoing over, but hopefully it would get better really soon. If there's any problems that you have, you can always share with me if you don't mind.
Ending with something quoted: "Life is like a rainbow, the entire spectrum represents all the events you face, and at the end of the rainbow there is always a hidden pot of gold."
This post is dedicated to a certain someone (maybe I should start giving ambiguous nicknames for other people so that 'a certain someone' only refers to one at a time) who is wondering about life. So here's my small take on what is life.
Actually the title of the post summarises everything, so the rest is just elaborations.
Firstly, there is no such thing as a meaningless life. For every action that you took in your life, you create a ripple. This ripple can be big or small, and thus the number of people it can affect varies. It can even be seen that the ripple is like a signal, seeking out foreign objects which might respond to the small disturbance. Every action contains an intention to seek friendship, for a willing someone to respond to your action with his or hers. That's the start of a friendship isn't it?
Friendship itself is a beautiful thing. Good friends come when you need them the most, walk with you out of a problem without asking for much in return. In life, reliance on friends more is a good thing. It helps when things get too rough for yourself to cope.
I remember how our friendship first started. It's really the quite classic example of the start of a friendship. You are the first person to help me with putting away all the chem practical files after chem pracs one fine day. That's the start of our friendship :D
In the end life is still up to you, do you want to 撒网 or 钓鱼? What is the most important things to you now? What do you want to do in the future? There is no wrong answer, everything is a choice.
And today, the moment I see how you play I know you emoing alr. I'm not sure what you are emoing over, but hopefully it would get better really soon. If there's any problems that you have, you can always share with me if you don't mind.
Ending with something quoted: "Life is like a rainbow, the entire spectrum represents all the events you face, and at the end of the rainbow there is always a hidden pot of gold."
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Suicide
It is just like killing yourself in a more subtle manner. All the problems rose from expectations and certain tragic past which is, tragic. And through self-punishment the suicide cycle continues.
It's kind of amusing how I used to get inferiority complex just by counting the number of commitments you have. Or maybe it's really being inferior. Now I got more 'relaxed' and decided that if I had so much commitments I would die, literally.
It's really painful to know that not many people can help you in the state you are in, because people see you as so 'godlike', have such high expectations of you, that they become unsure of what way they can help. And sometimes it is true that they can't provide any help as much as how you help yourself, and in that case noobs like me emo in a corner thinking about how to treat you nicely so that at least you don't kill yourself during the process of squishing people's faces. Seriously, I have no rock-solid solution to most if not all of your problems, simply because my life is so trouble-free and happy that that only kind of problems I meet either requires mugging or hugging to be solved. Uh maybe not hugging but just talking to people about my problems make me feel less troubled.
In that sense I look for emotional support more than anything else. You probably seek the same type of support, except I can't provide you with that because it's obvious. Well depends if you want to.
And in that sense I guess problems are directly proportionate to how much commitments one have. Seeing how some take up many commitments to kill off certain things, which created more problems, then more commitments. Endless cycle of suicide.
btw, ignore the teachers, you don't expect someone to have a thousand and one things and yet ace everything, like that might as well dun go school directly go 创业 alr.
when you read this you would probably erpz me :3
It's kind of amusing how I used to get inferiority complex just by counting the number of commitments you have. Or maybe it's really being inferior. Now I got more 'relaxed' and decided that if I had so much commitments I would die, literally.
It's really painful to know that not many people can help you in the state you are in, because people see you as so 'godlike', have such high expectations of you, that they become unsure of what way they can help. And sometimes it is true that they can't provide any help as much as how you help yourself, and in that case noobs like me emo in a corner thinking about how to treat you nicely so that at least you don't kill yourself during the process of squishing people's faces. Seriously, I have no rock-solid solution to most if not all of your problems, simply because my life is so trouble-free and happy that that only kind of problems I meet either requires mugging or hugging to be solved. Uh maybe not hugging but just talking to people about my problems make me feel less troubled.
In that sense I look for emotional support more than anything else. You probably seek the same type of support, except I can't provide you with that because it's obvious. Well depends if you want to.
And in that sense I guess problems are directly proportionate to how much commitments one have. Seeing how some take up many commitments to kill off certain things, which created more problems, then more commitments. Endless cycle of suicide.
btw, ignore the teachers, you don't expect someone to have a thousand and one things and yet ace everything, like that might as well dun go school directly go 创业 alr.
when you read this you would probably erpz me :3
Monday, July 25, 2011
I finally decide to post videos
I actually didn't know you can post videos on blogger ZOMG. I keep thinking that blogger is so fail that you can only upload videos onto it from your com or something -.-
Anyways here's a nice piano piece recommended by jingyi. Research shows that 90% of the people buy products based on peer recommendation mmm!
Enjoy.
Oh, and today's SSRC campaign video in the making was epic.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Saturday, July 23, 2011
boundary between cold war and hot war
It was a joke about there being a pentagonal chain war, where after one person's war with his parents ended another one would start on another person.
Till now the 4th war has broken out, and hopefully finished fighting.
Erhem 5th person be careful dun let war break out with your parents as well. Hence, go sleep earlier.
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Today saw you in a seemingly not very full hp condition. I don't know the whole story but it's quite extreme to have that done to you leh..
I like the feeling of just sitting beside you, don't matter if we are talking or not, and stone. It felt nice I guess, is that a sign of tier 1? I don't have tier 1s that make me feel that way so I don't know also (different people became tier 1s for different reasons and personalities, but none make me feel the same way as another).
80%. I wonder whether that was said to make me feel happy, or is it really true? Because if it's true, maybe I can understand better.
rawr shall sleep.
Till now the 4th war has broken out, and hopefully finished fighting.
Erhem 5th person be careful dun let war break out with your parents as well. Hence, go sleep earlier.
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Today saw you in a seemingly not very full hp condition. I don't know the whole story but it's quite extreme to have that done to you leh..
I like the feeling of just sitting beside you, don't matter if we are talking or not, and stone. It felt nice I guess, is that a sign of tier 1? I don't have tier 1s that make me feel that way so I don't know also (different people became tier 1s for different reasons and personalities, but none make me feel the same way as another).
80%. I wonder whether that was said to make me feel happy, or is it really true? Because if it's true, maybe I can understand better.
rawr shall sleep.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
sleep
X uses rest! X slept and regained health.
I shall become the universal sleep adviser lolololol.
I shall become the universal sleep adviser lolololol.
Monday, July 18, 2011
It is all the candle's fault
As quoted and requoted so many times already, 'there is no free lunch in this world.' To add on to that, I shall say that 'anything that seems like a free lunch is a trap in disguise.'
One fine day, a boy with a squishable face and big appetite got a free dinner for two (preferably) from a boss in a restaurant. (Do not ask how he got it because I'm writing the story and I shall decide what happens) He is super happy, because there is actually free meal in this world, amazing!
And so he got very excited and decides on who to invite to go with him for the dinner. Suddenly, he realised to his horror that it is in fact a CANDLELIT dinner. And all at once his fantasy was crushed. Invite a girl? No way, it would only suggest that he is going to ask her out as a gf or something. Invite his best friend? Nah, people around will start staring and whispering stuff like 'omg the two guys there are dating!'
NANI? HOW TO CHOOSE? The boy is deeply troubled. How to invite a person without zi-owning, or more of, how to not zi-own at all. There are a few options left. 1. Go by yourself and pretend to be forever single (至今单身 ftw) 2. Dao the thing, free lunch is a trap, I shall not fall for it. 3. Give the chance to the parents, clearly it's a win-win situation as they get to have romantic candlelit dinner while the boy can slack at home, but at the cost of losing the dinner of course. 4. Go with best friend anyways, who cares about the nonsense other people whisper?
WHAT SHOULD HE DO?
撒网 vs 钓鱼
It really depends on how a person sees his world and surrounding. If he values quantity more than quality (of course the argument also goes that larger quantity = higher chance of having good quality) he would obviously 撒网 cus that ensures better return. For someone like me whose web like spider web like that ie dam noob, I prefer to 钓鱼. The time taken may be long, you may not catch anything for a very long time, the fish may bite then decide to let go. But at the end of the day, any fish caught by the hook is a confirmed catch. Also, letting chance play her way through and have a 愿者上钩 isnt a bad thing right.
My social network may be limited, but I have a lot of very good and nice friends. Some perhaps got hooked, some perhaps bit willingly, but it doesnt matter. Be happy with wat I have, fatten all of them first, then continue fishing.
My social network may be limited, but I have a lot of very good and nice friends. Some perhaps got hooked, some perhaps bit willingly, but it doesnt matter. Be happy with wat I have, fatten all of them first, then continue fishing.
Saturday, July 16, 2011
freedom
Today, I had an argument with my mom.
Well, more of my mom doing all the shouting while I tried to ignore.
And now I'm free. Everything I do is within my control.
I am suddenly given the power to do anything I want, they don't care about me anymore. And that include giving me my pocket money for tmr, which probably means I won't be given food at home. Though that is not a problem because I can cook.
This new freedom is kind of...unnerving. It's not the kind of freedom I expected. It's as though I gained 'freedom' by being abandoned to do everything by myself.
I won't complain, and I won't be angry. But there is NO WAY you are going to restrict my computer gaming time any further. I already complied to the homework + study time > computer gaming time schedule, except on weekends because I need to relax. And now what is this? Only allowing me to play games on Fridays? If you really try to do that, you know I will definitely negative feedback in your face. If I don't play secretly, then I will abuse my hand phone to at least have quality msn time.
Lol, because the emoness has already being unleashed onto a certain chinese blog, this post is pure disapproval.
Well, more of my mom doing all the shouting while I tried to ignore.
And now I'm free. Everything I do is within my control.
I am suddenly given the power to do anything I want, they don't care about me anymore. And that include giving me my pocket money for tmr, which probably means I won't be given food at home. Though that is not a problem because I can cook.
This new freedom is kind of...unnerving. It's not the kind of freedom I expected. It's as though I gained 'freedom' by being abandoned to do everything by myself.
I won't complain, and I won't be angry. But there is NO WAY you are going to restrict my computer gaming time any further. I already complied to the homework + study time > computer gaming time schedule, except on weekends because I need to relax. And now what is this? Only allowing me to play games on Fridays? If you really try to do that, you know I will definitely negative feedback in your face. If I don't play secretly, then I will abuse my hand phone to at least have quality msn time.
Lol, because the emoness has already being unleashed onto a certain chinese blog, this post is pure disapproval.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
beach ball
Was inspired by someone else's blog post.
Life is like a beach ball. It is colourful, it is fun to play with, and when you use it to smash people they can smash it back at you. It keeps you entertained for a little while if you play with it. But at the end of the day it is only filled with air, nothing else.
What you will remember after a long time (and what other people remembered) is not about that beach ball, but how you shared it with others at the beach and had fun together, indulging in warm sun and sea breeze.
At the same time, this beach ball may get worn out, stuck on top of trees, blown away by strong wind, or leak air until no more air left. Maybe it is no longer useful, no longer worth keeping, but people will still remember the time they spent playing with the beach ball. After all, it's just air trapped in a layer of plastic, it is bound to be torn one day.
However, that does not mean you should guard the beach ball ever so closely, not sharing with anyone, for fear of having it torn, because in that case, the beach ball would have lost its purpose. On the other hand, you cannot throw away the beach ball when you don't think it is any useful anymore, because there will always be times of ups and downs, and people always need a beach ball to play with.
There are some people who, having found no one to share the beach ball with, felt depressed and wanted to throw the beach ball away. Maybe it's not time for you to share the beach ball yet, cus everyone else has a beach ball themselves, some need time to know the importance of sharing beach balls. Also, you don't expect to be able to find someone to toss the beach ball around with all day long right? There are always times when people got bored with playing the beach ball, they need time to cool down also.
And for others who don't want to share the beach ball with too many people, it's up to them to decide how to share it, because it is their own beach ball. Although sharing with more people will allow more people to share it back with you, so maybe that is a good thing.
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Side note, it's interesting how ppl say I appear more serious online as compared to daily life. I'm trying to be caring and understanding in real life, whether or not other ppl can feel it is another thing though. ok, back to gp.
Life is like a beach ball. It is colourful, it is fun to play with, and when you use it to smash people they can smash it back at you. It keeps you entertained for a little while if you play with it. But at the end of the day it is only filled with air, nothing else.
What you will remember after a long time (and what other people remembered) is not about that beach ball, but how you shared it with others at the beach and had fun together, indulging in warm sun and sea breeze.
At the same time, this beach ball may get worn out, stuck on top of trees, blown away by strong wind, or leak air until no more air left. Maybe it is no longer useful, no longer worth keeping, but people will still remember the time they spent playing with the beach ball. After all, it's just air trapped in a layer of plastic, it is bound to be torn one day.
However, that does not mean you should guard the beach ball ever so closely, not sharing with anyone, for fear of having it torn, because in that case, the beach ball would have lost its purpose. On the other hand, you cannot throw away the beach ball when you don't think it is any useful anymore, because there will always be times of ups and downs, and people always need a beach ball to play with.
There are some people who, having found no one to share the beach ball with, felt depressed and wanted to throw the beach ball away. Maybe it's not time for you to share the beach ball yet, cus everyone else has a beach ball themselves, some need time to know the importance of sharing beach balls. Also, you don't expect to be able to find someone to toss the beach ball around with all day long right? There are always times when people got bored with playing the beach ball, they need time to cool down also.
And for others who don't want to share the beach ball with too many people, it's up to them to decide how to share it, because it is their own beach ball. Although sharing with more people will allow more people to share it back with you, so maybe that is a good thing.
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Side note, it's interesting how ppl say I appear more serious online as compared to daily life. I'm trying to be caring and understanding in real life, whether or not other ppl can feel it is another thing though. ok, back to gp.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
boundary between A and B
That is almost where my chem blocks score lies. Well at least it is an A, but very low A. If you want to know it's 72.
RAWR IT MAKES ME FEEL 不爽!
Ok I shall actually mug for my chem now, instead of continuously slacking through tutorials, lectures and tests all this time. Seeing that my score is supposedly also the boundary of 'fail' and 'normal' among the smtp ppl. Ie. get lower than fanyi for chem = you fail, get higher than him = u r normal, get higher than kaidi = ok reached lvl of godliness alr. Whole purpose of this is because I always slack off my chem and get a low to mid A for chem.
And hence I shall mug chem, so as to raise my score, and also raise the boundary of fail and normal for the rest.
But for those who did not do as well as expected, or lost marks due to careless mistakes / brain suddenly dying cus of too much pressure, blocks is stupid. Hence, don't emo for the blocks scores, there are many tests afterwards, so just need to do more revision, and chem is mug topic, no exceptions, especially for organic chem part.
RAWR IT MAKES ME FEEL 不爽!
Ok I shall actually mug for my chem now, instead of continuously slacking through tutorials, lectures and tests all this time. Seeing that my score is supposedly also the boundary of 'fail' and 'normal' among the smtp ppl. Ie. get lower than fanyi for chem = you fail, get higher than him = u r normal, get higher than kaidi = ok reached lvl of godliness alr. Whole purpose of this is because I always slack off my chem and get a low to mid A for chem.
And hence I shall mug chem, so as to raise my score, and also raise the boundary of fail and normal for the rest.
But for those who did not do as well as expected, or lost marks due to careless mistakes / brain suddenly dying cus of too much pressure, blocks is stupid. Hence, don't emo for the blocks scores, there are many tests afterwards, so just need to do more revision, and chem is mug topic, no exceptions, especially for organic chem part.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
waiting
I SHALL WAIT FOR MY CHEM BLOCKS RESULTS TO COME OUT RAWRRR.
(nitrogen)
and I should start making bets with people so that they can treat me when they get higher than me for chem blocks or something lololol.
(nitrogen)
and I should start making bets with people so that they can treat me when they get higher than me for chem blocks or something lololol.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
emotions
It's as though cold war makes me cold as well. And now I get easily irritated over small things. What's happening to me?
Saturday, July 9, 2011
version 1.10
Guess what I am going to do? That usually ends up with something super surprising or super predictable.
Training skillz at many things, such as ...
Oh wells, I shall wake up tmr morning, do homework, study, and then spend the rest of the night playing ohohohoho. That's if I manage to wake up at 9 am or something. erps during the weekend I usually wake up late.
Training skillz at many things, such as ...
Oh wells, I shall wake up tmr morning, do homework, study, and then spend the rest of the night playing ohohohoho. That's if I manage to wake up at 9 am or something. erps during the weekend I usually wake up late.
Friday, July 8, 2011
time management
If people see that I'm no longer as 'active' on the msn, it is because I am currently in cold war mode with my parents, due to argument over homework, studying, playing and sleeping time.
Basically I must sleep before 12 am every day. 12.30 am on Friday. Weekend is slightly more flexible.
Homework + studying time > playing time
And somehow studying time and playing time cannot be 1:1 ratio.
And so now in rebellion mode. Until I have pwned them with my pro timing.
Basically I must sleep before 12 am every day. 12.30 am on Friday. Weekend is slightly more flexible.
Homework + studying time > playing time
And somehow studying time and playing time cannot be 1:1 ratio.
And so now in rebellion mode. Until I have pwned them with my pro timing.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
version 1.00
It's interesting (and fun hehehehe) that just by changing the location where the arms are placed, the entire thing changes its meaning. And it probably feel different also.
I am definitely getting addicted. And I love it :3
I am definitely getting addicted. And I love it :3
Monday, July 4, 2011
the art of slacking
It is not surprising that I'm slacking off as usual.
Well, I'm giving myself the excuse that since blocks just ended, I should reward myself for my efforts put into mugging for blocks, and hence, slack. In the mean time I'm carelessly shrugging that high-density figure looming over me aka EOM. Well I sort of started, except I'm way too lazy to try to do it properly.
It is not good to know that (you know, knowing that) I have been very slack ever since the start of the year. It is one thing to not notice it by shrugging it off, it is another to be so slack that even I myself can notice how slack I am already.
And of course I did not put in my full effort in mugging for blocks, ESPECIALLY for bio. It is even possible that I can fail bio blocks. I won't be surprised that I will, seeing how badly my MCQ section was already.
But while carelessly slacking away, I purposefully dropped myself a bomb: I slacked off too much for chem also. It is a good thing, seriously. Because seeing how I sold half of my soul to chem, if I managed to really B this blocks, it might finally be a final warning for me to study hard, and study properly. Especially when I made so many careless mistakes already, seriously how in the world did I think that that stupid sulfur atom accepted the two electrons when its obvious its the two oxygen atoms wtf. And wtf I WROTE HYDROGEN BOND THEN I DREW DATIVE BOND. If the chem blocks can't knock some sense into me, nothing will.
This ends the section about everyday ranting.
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The following part is not really nice to see, it might spoil your image of me, actually I don't even know what is your image of me.
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Moving on to other stuff, I kind of sense that sometimes I can't differentiate friendship from love. For those people who know about me, you should know that this is especially bad.
Within me, there are spirits fighting. One claims that I don't know what is friend, and what is love, and what is crush. I just mix the three up together, and treat the three in the same way. He even claims that I only do what I do, because I'm afraid of losing them, I am not showing who I truly am, because I fear rejection.
The other claims that I don't even know what is love or crush. To me there is no boundary between love and crush, because I do not experience them in the first place. I don't know how to fall in love, I only know what is lust. I only see lust, that's all.
A third tiny voice says that I know what it feels like, and I want to be in love. But it is so hard, it is so hard and I keep failing, it is so hard that I don't dare to try anymore, I only wants to dream and fantasize. And yet I am so greedy, so greedy, I want to cross the boundary, I am so greedy.
The fourth voice soothes the others by saying that it is not easy to fall in love in the first place, it is always possible as long as I try hard enough.
Maybe I should just split myself into parts, and lock some of those away. Or maybe just kill them. Yeah, I should just kill part of myself, just like that. chop chop slash. And then the insecurity will be away, I will live happier. omg I sound like some mentally demented person -.-
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Ok, back to EOM. I doubt I would do any work actually.
Well, I'm giving myself the excuse that since blocks just ended, I should reward myself for my efforts put into mugging for blocks, and hence, slack. In the mean time I'm carelessly shrugging that high-density figure looming over me aka EOM. Well I sort of started, except I'm way too lazy to try to do it properly.
It is not good to know that (you know, knowing that) I have been very slack ever since the start of the year. It is one thing to not notice it by shrugging it off, it is another to be so slack that even I myself can notice how slack I am already.
And of course I did not put in my full effort in mugging for blocks, ESPECIALLY for bio. It is even possible that I can fail bio blocks. I won't be surprised that I will, seeing how badly my MCQ section was already.
But while carelessly slacking away, I purposefully dropped myself a bomb: I slacked off too much for chem also. It is a good thing, seriously. Because seeing how I sold half of my soul to chem, if I managed to really B this blocks, it might finally be a final warning for me to study hard, and study properly. Especially when I made so many careless mistakes already, seriously how in the world did I think that that stupid sulfur atom accepted the two electrons when its obvious its the two oxygen atoms wtf. And wtf I WROTE HYDROGEN BOND THEN I DREW DATIVE BOND. If the chem blocks can't knock some sense into me, nothing will.
This ends the section about everyday ranting.
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The following part is not really nice to see, it might spoil your image of me, actually I don't even know what is your image of me.
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Moving on to other stuff, I kind of sense that sometimes I can't differentiate friendship from love. For those people who know about me, you should know that this is especially bad.
Within me, there are spirits fighting. One claims that I don't know what is friend, and what is love, and what is crush. I just mix the three up together, and treat the three in the same way. He even claims that I only do what I do, because I'm afraid of losing them, I am not showing who I truly am, because I fear rejection.
The other claims that I don't even know what is love or crush. To me there is no boundary between love and crush, because I do not experience them in the first place. I don't know how to fall in love, I only know what is lust. I only see lust, that's all.
A third tiny voice says that I know what it feels like, and I want to be in love. But it is so hard, it is so hard and I keep failing, it is so hard that I don't dare to try anymore, I only wants to dream and fantasize. And yet I am so greedy, so greedy, I want to cross the boundary, I am so greedy.
The fourth voice soothes the others by saying that it is not easy to fall in love in the first place, it is always possible as long as I try hard enough.
Maybe I should just split myself into parts, and lock some of those away. Or maybe just kill them. Yeah, I should just kill part of myself, just like that. chop chop slash. And then the insecurity will be away, I will live happier. omg I sound like some mentally demented person -.-
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Ok, back to EOM. I doubt I would do any work actually.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
mixed emoticon is hard to make
Uh blocks is over.
Chemistry was ... not hard but rush. Hopefully can get A. I don't believe I can minus more than 30 marks from the paper lor...
Ok, time to focus on EOM already. And mug chem o!
Oh yeah, 'family' outing soon, hopefully most of the ppl can come.
Chemistry was ... not hard but rush. Hopefully can get A. I don't believe I can minus more than 30 marks from the paper lor...
Ok, time to focus on EOM already. And mug chem o!
Oh yeah, 'family' outing soon, hopefully most of the ppl can come.
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