feel

One guy once said 'If you want to know about aa, bb, cc and dd, ask Fan Yi.'
I laughed at that time cus it suggested how stalker I am sometimes. (ok maybe alot of the times.)
But I know I don't 'know about' these people at all. People tend to form a closed system where even emotions are not left exposed. And it is very hard to read or feel people's emotions, or understand their thoughts. One good question is why do I want to know so much, which I currently am trying (and sort of failing cus I hardly analyse myself nowadays) to find a non-biased answer.
On the other hand, I'm super self-conscious such that I link any not so obvious comments about a not so obvious someone to myself and see whether it applies, and then what does the not so obvious comment mean.