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WTF I EVEN SCREWED UP MY CHEM LECTURE TEST.
WLWTAHLOQCHTOCYQI5%^#*^%oiqiotynce$yu#
22/30 is unacceptable >:(

failure

failed econs lecture test as well.
hardcore mugging.

time to get down to work

So today I got back my maths class test. 7/20. fail. Lowest in class, and probably lowest in the entire smtp cohort.

And so I decided to emo for 1 hour, and after that is motivated to FINALLY STOP SLACKING AND GET DOWN TO SERIOUS WORK.

Main changes, now I shifted my com to my writing desk, instead of sitting in my own room where homework can never reach me. And I decided that while I'm doing serious work my msn status would be appear offline instead of busy. Because apparently even though busy gives other ppl the impression that you are busy, it still provides that excuse that 'I'm on the com and so I can use it'. So now it's appear offline for me.

If I don't find a way to hardcore mug and catch up on tutorial I would DIE. Especially with centad project, PW and probably fac comm if I can get in.

BACK TO HOMEWORK. AND MUGGING.

T.T

Bio lecture test tmr and I have 3 major pieces of homework undone.

1. PW PI <- arhghhhghghgh that's the hardest piece of work I've ever met for a while.

2. GP aspects of Singapore <- I'm getting very tired with copying and pasting sources from online, shall continue spamming after tmr.

3. CenTad proposal <- 1 word: screw.

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wish me luck with trying to not procrastinate my work. Otherwise I would be dam screwed as more and more work start piling up.

hihi

I think I show a rather different side of myself when chatting on msn.

But I suppose it really depends on my mood actually.

In real life when I suffer from anything negative I try to laugh it off. It's better that way, people around you don't get emo because you are emo or something.

Which basically means I'm more spas in real life. Everyone has masks to hide themselves, so do I. My spastic random mask hides my true self. The true self is for people to find out, no point stripping all my camouflage and leave my personalities exposed for everyone to see.

I guess I hide my feelings less while online. Strange isn't it, being more of myself when I'm less of myself.

On a random note, I feel like starting a casual tuition class for anyone interested. And of course I only tutor chem (not physics, not maths, not bio, not econs, not gp, but chem). And I only tutor stuff within the syllabus. Anything outside syllabus you can google / wikipedia / ask teacher / go chem o and learn. The trivia stuff I might be interested to say la, but once again I have to say I do not know everything about chem, so sometimes my explanation is what I think may be right.

But if you find the word 'tuition' too serious, you can always resort to asking questions instead. yay.

:(

stupid PW PI!!

have to redo the whole thing is sadface.

congratz

CONGRATULATIONS TO THOSE WHO GOT INTO COUNCIL!

And for those who did not, don't be disheartened, there are plenty of other opportunities waiting for you all, running for council provided a lot of experience for you guys, so keep striving and you will definitely succeed!

For those who got into council, remember that 1. must represent the masses cus they voted for you all 2. manage your time (more) properly with busy council stuff 3. don't forget about your family and friends (and work) even with council work, once again MANAGE TIME WELL.

Anyways even for me I probably need to adjust my own schedule to suit my councilor friends' schedule, otherwise time for hanging out with them would be screwed.

After council elections school days are going to get more normal (ie. busier), and I'm supposed to be starting to do science project / maybe centad already. So balancing time is once again a must.

Is considering whether to run for fac com, but I think it won't turn out well because I'm abit too introverted already, need to have someone else to lead the way before being more enthu than normal. But try bah, leadership position seemed to be important nowadays.

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Random thought: if I ran for council, how many people would vote for me? hmm

hi

Having random rushes of thoughts while doing PW PI draft 1. (I think my PI is confirm fail already, now must refer to rubrics to redo. sighz.)

I have this sudden urge of wanting to be a nicer person.

It seems that from sec 4 to jc 1, I have experienced a drop in my tolerance level, I became even more slack, I got quite addicted to the computer (in the sense that I can waste a lot of time simply by using the laptop), and that I'm not mugging my best subject at all.

I got this mixed complex about my best subject. Part of me is this extremely proud and perhaps having a superiority complex about his subject. Another part wants to help people in this subject (which now I'm fearing arises from the superiority complex that everyone is weaker than me wtf), like really enthuly. But I digress.

When I asked wc about my personality he said that it seemed very complex. I see myself as part of me being extremely shy, part of me being extremely proud, part of me being very pessimistic and another part of me trying to be very accepting and caring. And there's a small part of me that is always lonely.

Start off by being more accepting towards others. Now I have moments which I'm super annoyed with some people that I sort of push them away. Does that mean that I got less accepting, or that they abused my friendliness more? It's quite hard for me to judge.

One more thing, I absolutely HATE IT when someone tries to do anything with my neck. I just don't like the feeling.