Yes my laptop died since yesterday.
Basically wat happened was that I decided to carry it (while it's turned on) from the small table to the writing desk. Then on that small distance there I dropped it (fail), and boomz it shut down, and ever since then I was either unable to turn it on or it would mass lag without me touching it.
Cold joke: how to 'turn on' a com. hmm too cold liao.
Anyways, the good thing about not having a com around is that I might probably do more work and read extra stuff, btw I took my free time at home to practise bodywave. I SHALL MASTER IT RAWR. Pink bean said she finds my failed body wave highly amusing, and there are girls from 7F who came to my ct bench just to watch me do fail body waves?! wtf.
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On a side note, I think I really quite easy to please emotionally, and thus also easy to hurt. It's like yesterday shiro just spent some time talking to me about stuff, and I feel really happy listening. (though the stuff discussed is not very happy but I feel as though I'm someone of certain importance to him, so very happy)
So to shiro, try to get more sleep soon, don't tire yourself out so much, it's not good to fall asleep during econs lecture hahaha.
Tmr is POP, ARTEMIS SHALL OWN.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
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I wonder if there is anyone who comes to me and talks about his or her personal problem.
I think I'm a listener, but whether or not I'm a caring listener would require others to see.
I'm very different in school, probably because I'm afraid / shy to show others about my real self. That's probably why some people gasp when I told them my DOPE test showed that I'm a dove, or that I'm ISFJ.
I might be unable to obtain somewhere in the middle, I can only take on the ends of the spectrum. Either I randomed around until people see that I'm not serious at all, or I try to be serious and resulted in people thinking I'm moody / gloom / sad.
It is true that I'm not good at helping people solve the problem, I can only try to make them feel better. But I suppose it's not happening at the moment, because I don't really see people coming to me in person or online. It's probably that they don't find me a serious enough person to talk about personal issues, or they don't trust me enough (which comes from the fact that they don't find me serious enough), or they have other friends to talk about those issues (and thus I would not have a good chance), or they like to emo alone.
Upon looking back at a poll I did before, I highly doubt that 'too nice to people' is a compliment at all. In what way am I too nice to people? If I'm really too nice to people, why people don't find me to talk about personal issues? Why they only come to ask about work, or to ask me to do things for them? Is 'too nice' merely a replacement word for 'being a good tool'?
Sorry I was firing up. I'm actually blaming others for not trusting me instead of reflecting on how much I have done.
But I'm not sure what to do. Should I be more active in helping others? Or should I work on showing that I'm someone you can trust to share your problems (not school work) with?
For those reading this now, hope it doesn't bother you to provide some feedback to me, whether here, through email or in person. I just want to know how I can change, and what is your impression of me.
I think I'm a listener, but whether or not I'm a caring listener would require others to see.
I'm very different in school, probably because I'm afraid / shy to show others about my real self. That's probably why some people gasp when I told them my DOPE test showed that I'm a dove, or that I'm ISFJ.
I might be unable to obtain somewhere in the middle, I can only take on the ends of the spectrum. Either I randomed around until people see that I'm not serious at all, or I try to be serious and resulted in people thinking I'm moody / gloom / sad.
It is true that I'm not good at helping people solve the problem, I can only try to make them feel better. But I suppose it's not happening at the moment, because I don't really see people coming to me in person or online. It's probably that they don't find me a serious enough person to talk about personal issues, or they don't trust me enough (which comes from the fact that they don't find me serious enough), or they have other friends to talk about those issues (and thus I would not have a good chance), or they like to emo alone.
Upon looking back at a poll I did before, I highly doubt that 'too nice to people' is a compliment at all. In what way am I too nice to people? If I'm really too nice to people, why people don't find me to talk about personal issues? Why they only come to ask about work, or to ask me to do things for them? Is 'too nice' merely a replacement word for 'being a good tool'?
Sorry I was firing up. I'm actually blaming others for not trusting me instead of reflecting on how much I have done.
But I'm not sure what to do. Should I be more active in helping others? Or should I work on showing that I'm someone you can trust to share your problems (not school work) with?
For those reading this now, hope it doesn't bother you to provide some feedback to me, whether here, through email or in person. I just want to know how I can change, and what is your impression of me.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
random convo!
When you need something to fill up the blog, you put in random convos.
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Chen Gong says
lolk
hmm i bet edward sleeping
Hikari tsukiKage says
lulz
that means today cannot play liao :<
Chen Gong says
lol
=/
Hikari tsukiKage says
is he still sleeping o.o
Chen Gong says
i think so
should be what
Hikari tsukiKage says
i noe
u can err
tele to his house and knock at his door
Chen Gong says
._.
then his mother will appear
then i will say
"hello i'm looking for edward. he's supposed to be dotaing atm"
how (Y) can it get
hmm
i now set aside sunday for mugging
Hikari tsukiKage says
o.o
yes thats very (Y)
then his mom might be like 'ok wait a while i go wake him up'
Chen Gong says
lmao
Hikari tsukiKage says
-.- u dc as well
Chen Gong says
my comp fking laggy
Hikari tsukiKage says
-.-
anyways
edward would say 'fck i wan to sleep'
AND NO ONE QUESTIONS HOW U GOT THERE!!!
Chen Gong says
._.
Hikari tsukiKage says
randomness
i should post this on my blog
rofl
Chen Gong says
\o/
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convos with gc produces alot of randomness. <3 it. yes no one questions how did gc tele there.
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Chen Gong says
lolk
hmm i bet edward sleeping
Hikari tsukiKage says
lulz
that means today cannot play liao :<
Chen Gong says
lol
=/
Hikari tsukiKage says
is he still sleeping o.o
Chen Gong says
i think so
should be what
Hikari tsukiKage says
i noe
u can err
tele to his house and knock at his door
Chen Gong says
._.
then his mother will appear
then i will say
"hello i'm looking for edward. he's supposed to be dotaing atm"
how (Y) can it get
hmm
i now set aside sunday for mugging
Hikari tsukiKage says
o.o
yes thats very (Y)
then his mom might be like 'ok wait a while i go wake him up'
Chen Gong says
lmao
Hikari tsukiKage says
-.- u dc as well
Chen Gong says
my comp fking laggy
Hikari tsukiKage says
-.-
anyways
edward would say 'fck i wan to sleep'
AND NO ONE QUESTIONS HOW U GOT THERE!!!
Chen Gong says
._.
Hikari tsukiKage says
randomness
i should post this on my blog
rofl
Chen Gong says
\o/
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convos with gc produces alot of randomness. <3 it. yes no one questions how did gc tele there.
Serious
If I'm typing on msn, and I said 'srsly' followed by an emoticon, it means I'm jokingly serious.
If I typed the whole word 'serious', and I repeated that 'I'm serious', it means I really am.
Just saying, because there may be people who thought I was not serious, because I sounded so fake, or so untrue, or seemed to be denying something because I find it embarrassing.
This post is for no one in particular, just that a chat yesterday made me realise that way.
Have a good day.
If I typed the whole word 'serious', and I repeated that 'I'm serious', it means I really am.
Just saying, because there may be people who thought I was not serious, because I sounded so fake, or so untrue, or seemed to be denying something because I find it embarrassing.
This post is for no one in particular, just that a chat yesterday made me realise that way.
Have a good day.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Dance
We can dance, until we die. Seriously.
I've being watching my faculty's people practising the fac dance from the second floor (ie. stalker peeking mode) since bio lesson ended.
They were basically looping the same song over and over again, and dance to the song over and over again. Very interesting.
Not that I don't have any faculty spirit or anything, but I'm not that committed into the faculty stuff as well. Sometimes my sloth gets the better of me, especially if my brain perceives that what I was asked to do has no great importance. Hence sometimes I only do things for a reason.
That does not affect my attempt to socialise anyways, because recently I decided that although making friends do have a hidden intention, it is still lighter than work and other behind the scene stuff, and it's not my style. I wonder if I could actually be sneaky, not that it's a good thing.
On a side note, today's maths was probably better than yesterday, because the wave of niaoing is over, although there are still people who thought that my maths must be very pro to be in that class. So here I shall state again: my maths is not pro, I scrapped A1 for sec 4s A maths, if that did not show anything. And of course the teacher never teach anything today, seems that maths has became a self-study topic as well.
I have this very weird habit of not daring to ask pro people on subjects which I'm weak at, eg. maths. Maybe it's due to my lame sense of pride, as though I feel very paiseh to ask my peers about questions which probably seemed so easy to them. (that's my assumption)
On the other hand, I'm really enthu about the subject that I'm good at, eg chem. Enthu to the point that mentioning anything about chem would ‘让范轶很激动’, as quoted from kaidi. So I'm very willing to help anyone in chem, as long as it's not calculations, because I suck at that. But assuming that I did manage to work out the question then I should be able to teach as well.
Random side note: due to my rather widely-known nickname of the '(self-proclaimed) chem god', many people thought that I really know everything about chem, and that I got all the knowledge just from my brain. So here's the 'truth': I'm rather ordinary actually, except that I'm very very interested and enthu about chem. Hence I would spend quite some time on searching about chem stuff online, which adds up to my pool of chem knowledge. So of course there will be chem stuff that I'm not good at, because truthfully, those topics are probably not muggable.
Though I still won't mind if people come for me to ask about chem. Oh btw, I write chinese stuff in my free time as well. My top 2 interests ^^
I've being watching my faculty's people practising the fac dance from the second floor (ie. stalker peeking mode) since bio lesson ended.
They were basically looping the same song over and over again, and dance to the song over and over again. Very interesting.
Not that I don't have any faculty spirit or anything, but I'm not that committed into the faculty stuff as well. Sometimes my sloth gets the better of me, especially if my brain perceives that what I was asked to do has no great importance. Hence sometimes I only do things for a reason.
That does not affect my attempt to socialise anyways, because recently I decided that although making friends do have a hidden intention, it is still lighter than work and other behind the scene stuff, and it's not my style. I wonder if I could actually be sneaky, not that it's a good thing.
On a side note, today's maths was probably better than yesterday, because the wave of niaoing is over, although there are still people who thought that my maths must be very pro to be in that class. So here I shall state again: my maths is not pro, I scrapped A1 for sec 4s A maths, if that did not show anything. And of course the teacher never teach anything today, seems that maths has became a self-study topic as well.
I have this very weird habit of not daring to ask pro people on subjects which I'm weak at, eg. maths. Maybe it's due to my lame sense of pride, as though I feel very paiseh to ask my peers about questions which probably seemed so easy to them. (that's my assumption)
On the other hand, I'm really enthu about the subject that I'm good at, eg chem. Enthu to the point that mentioning anything about chem would ‘让范轶很激动’, as quoted from kaidi. So I'm very willing to help anyone in chem, as long as it's not calculations, because I suck at that. But assuming that I did manage to work out the question then I should be able to teach as well.
Random side note: due to my rather widely-known nickname of the '(self-proclaimed) chem god', many people thought that I really know everything about chem, and that I got all the knowledge just from my brain. So here's the 'truth': I'm rather ordinary actually, except that I'm very very interested and enthu about chem. Hence I would spend quite some time on searching about chem stuff online, which adds up to my pool of chem knowledge. So of course there will be chem stuff that I'm not good at, because truthfully, those topics are probably not muggable.
Though I still won't mind if people come for me to ask about chem. Oh btw, I write chinese stuff in my free time as well. My top 2 interests ^^
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Screwed maths
When you find yourself in a class filled with people who are godlike with maths, and also 80.8% PRC, and you are very sure that your own maths is at most of average standard, you know something is very wrong somewhere.
That is exactly the situation I am in right now.
And somehow the first maths tutorial is spent on doing very random stuff such as giving the class a name. And after separating ppl into 6 grps, here are the following names. Contains a lot of niaoing of me.
Grp 1: We decide to call the class 'Salt rice', cus our class got Yan Kaidi and salt in chinese is yan, and fanyi and rice in chinese is fan, which shows the 2 ends of the (maths) spectrum.
Grp 2: We decide to call the class 'Salts'. We never put in rice cus rice is not important.
Grp 3: We decide to call our class Y^3, because the name of the tutor in short form is YYY.
Grp 4: We decide to call our class 73 because it is a supposed perfect number. (Dun ask me why)
Grp 5: We decide to call our class Chinatown. (for obvious reasons)
Grp 6: We decide to call our class 80.8%, because thats the percentage of PRCs.
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Srsly I already got enuf ego nerf by getting into that godly class, now even before lesson started I got another ego nerf.
They should put chem after maths tutorial, so I can get an ego buff to counteract the ego nerf. Urgh.
And when did I sign up for AMC??
That is exactly the situation I am in right now.
And somehow the first maths tutorial is spent on doing very random stuff such as giving the class a name. And after separating ppl into 6 grps, here are the following names. Contains a lot of niaoing of me.
Grp 1: We decide to call the class 'Salt rice', cus our class got Yan Kaidi and salt in chinese is yan, and fanyi and rice in chinese is fan, which shows the 2 ends of the (maths) spectrum.
Grp 2: We decide to call the class 'Salts'. We never put in rice cus rice is not important.
Grp 3: We decide to call our class Y^3, because the name of the tutor in short form is YYY.
Grp 4: We decide to call our class 73 because it is a supposed perfect number. (Dun ask me why)
Grp 5: We decide to call our class Chinatown. (for obvious reasons)
Grp 6: We decide to call our class 80.8%, because thats the percentage of PRCs.
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Srsly I already got enuf ego nerf by getting into that godly class, now even before lesson started I got another ego nerf.
They should put chem after maths tutorial, so I can get an ego buff to counteract the ego nerf. Urgh.
And when did I sign up for AMC??
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Bio
CaO was made Mr Cheerful by the bio lecturer, it is not a pleasant experience.
Lecturer: what are you supposed to do when you come into the audi? (angry)
CaO: We cheer!
Lecturer: who said that?! Own up now!
(screwed)
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Let's assume that the bio lecturer is a butch, and thus is very butchy with the students.
So we used 30 mins on notes about bio SPA, and 20 mins on chem (srsly), because the first topic is water, and from whatever point of view it is more chem than bio. Next topic is lipids, more chem awaits.
After lipids is carbohydrates I think, means even more chem.
Then after carbohydrates is proteins, even more chem.
The first few topics are just bio-chem. Hurray.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
dizzy
Today I went for medical check-up and a stupid thing happened to me.
The doctor needs to get some blood sample from me, and thus the needle is brought to my vein. The needle itself is not that painful, but the moment he started drawing blood, my entire body feels like life is sucked away from me.
Whole body very very cold, followed by horrible dizziness, almost wanted to throw up.
Literally collapsed onto the bed after taking height and weights (I'm 1.79 m weighing 63 kg btw)
While lying down my heart feels weird, as though it's dying and yet trying to beat. and yes my chest hurts, and I feel dam weak now.
Urgh, next time if you want to kidnap me, just go draw some blood from my body, then I would immediately collapse on the spot, dun even need to use chloroform.
Now I get what the dota heroes felt when pugna ultied them..
The doctor needs to get some blood sample from me, and thus the needle is brought to my vein. The needle itself is not that painful, but the moment he started drawing blood, my entire body feels like life is sucked away from me.
Whole body very very cold, followed by horrible dizziness, almost wanted to throw up.
Literally collapsed onto the bed after taking height and weights (I'm 1.79 m weighing 63 kg btw)
While lying down my heart feels weird, as though it's dying and yet trying to beat. and yes my chest hurts, and I feel dam weak now.
Urgh, next time if you want to kidnap me, just go draw some blood from my body, then I would immediately collapse on the spot, dun even need to use chloroform.
Now I get what the dota heroes felt when pugna ultied them..
Friday, February 11, 2011
Last day of orientation
Today marks the end of the JC1 orientation weeks. The last day was ended with performance followed by mass song, dance and cheering session.
Forgot a few steps for the batch dance Dynamite, so abit paiseh to other ppl there, though not everyone is dancing (some were just jumping around or doing mass human trains)
Then for Wild Wild West I can only remember up to the end of the jerking part. (Which is only like the first 2 sets of moves) Of course my butt shaking is not that pro, especially compared to Alex.
The lol thing about Alex is that every time he did a shoulder shake or butt movement, the girls would start screaming. But he's really pro at all the batch dances.
Too bad we did not take a photo before we leave. There were people taking jump shots though.
As usual, the atmosphere is very nice, I was quite enthu as well, though I did not join in the human train stuff, but merely stood at the very back with weibo, dom and others to sing / dance.
So today is the final day of our 'life', because from next week onwards we would have no life. hurray!
Looks forward to chem lecture though.
And Monday is Valentine's Day, I wonder who are those lucky couples haha.
Forgot a few steps for the batch dance Dynamite, so abit paiseh to other ppl there, though not everyone is dancing (some were just jumping around or doing mass human trains)
Then for Wild Wild West I can only remember up to the end of the jerking part. (Which is only like the first 2 sets of moves) Of course my butt shaking is not that pro, especially compared to Alex.
The lol thing about Alex is that every time he did a shoulder shake or butt movement, the girls would start screaming. But he's really pro at all the batch dances.
Too bad we did not take a photo before we leave. There were people taking jump shots though.
As usual, the atmosphere is very nice, I was quite enthu as well, though I did not join in the human train stuff, but merely stood at the very back with weibo, dom and others to sing / dance.
So today is the final day of our 'life', because from next week onwards we would have no life. hurray!
Looks forward to chem lecture though.
And Monday is Valentine's Day, I wonder who are those lucky couples haha.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
thoughts about few days of school
Technically school did not start yet, because now instead of OG orientation, we are having CT orientation, consisting of the usual things such as ice breakers.
Like my CT a lot now, because everyone is so nice! (reminds me of mirajane)
Today we just nominated everyone in the class to be part of the committee. I'm the assistant CT rep now, leaving chem rep to someone else, for the first time.
Last time wc told me my blog is very boring because it's all words, and I shall not change that because I don't have much photos.
But here's one of our class flag.
I always think random facts about myself is interesting, because it reveals things about myself, whether serious or not it's up to readers to decide.
So here's one random fact about myself again: I get pissed easily when I'm tired, but I'm even nicer when I'm sleepy.
Like my CT a lot now, because everyone is so nice! (reminds me of mirajane)
Today we just nominated everyone in the class to be part of the committee. I'm the assistant CT rep now, leaving chem rep to someone else, for the first time.
Last time wc told me my blog is very boring because it's all words, and I shall not change that because I don't have much photos.
But here's one of our class flag.
I always think random facts about myself is interesting, because it reveals things about myself, whether serious or not it's up to readers to decide.
So here's one random fact about myself again: I get pissed easily when I'm tired, but I'm even nicer when I'm sleepy.
Monday, February 7, 2011
Class
I was so enthu the day before that I couldn't sleep until 2.30 am. (Had a very real but very fantasy dream within that 3.5 hour)
Class list was out today, which explained 80% of my enthusiasm.
Did not get to know my class much as of now, but I think I would surely get to like my class and my classmates, it's just a matter of time. Haha.
Faculty is Artemis, the goddess of the hunt.
Also known as the goddess of cold jokes and frozen humour. You will get to know why if you are in Artemis as well.
Rather happy that almost all my friends are in Artemis (which lead to thamsy's lame comment of 'you have very few friends' -.-) So we would be in the same family for the next 2 years, jiayou!
Class list was out today, which explained 80% of my enthusiasm.
Did not get to know my class much as of now, but I think I would surely get to like my class and my classmates, it's just a matter of time. Haha.
Faculty is Artemis, the goddess of the hunt.
Also known as the goddess of cold jokes and frozen humour. You will get to know why if you are in Artemis as well.
Rather happy that almost all my friends are in Artemis (which lead to thamsy's lame comment of 'you have very few friends' -.-) So we would be in the same family for the next 2 years, jiayou!
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Chinese New Year
Happy Chinese New Year everyone!
This year is the year of the rabbit, hence it means that I would be very lucky this year. (Inside joke) No my zodiac is not the rabbit.
Anyways, Chinese New Year is for slacking and gaining weights (hopefully heights), thus I slept all the way till 4 pm today, in an attempt to grow taller.
New year = new class, though I don't know which class I'm in (and who are my classmates) yet, I'm really looking forward to it. Hopefully the class is not entirely made up of muggers, nerds and rejects.
Yes I have very little thing to say, because I'm very good at boring people with boring sentences, that's why I don't get along well with girls (nothing to talk about), which also explains for my passiveness in a convo (I usually listen unless I have something to say, which is very little).
Did not visit anyone's house yet, oh noez!
Ok new year resolutions:
1. Be pro in my studies (duh)
2. Be even proer in chem (duh x 2)
3. Have more common sense while dotaing
4. Make new friends. Close ones. ^^
5. Increase the number of tier 1s. (Shall not reveal what it means, figure it out yourself.)
6. Do well in projects (very important)
7. Enjoy my life (technically I've been slacking for the past years, so oh well)
This year is the year of the rabbit, hence it means that I would be very lucky this year. (Inside joke) No my zodiac is not the rabbit.
Anyways, Chinese New Year is for slacking and gaining weights (hopefully heights), thus I slept all the way till 4 pm today, in an attempt to grow taller.
New year = new class, though I don't know which class I'm in (and who are my classmates) yet, I'm really looking forward to it. Hopefully the class is not entirely made up of muggers, nerds and rejects.
Yes I have very little thing to say, because I'm very good at boring people with boring sentences, that's why I don't get along well with girls (nothing to talk about), which also explains for my passiveness in a convo (I usually listen unless I have something to say, which is very little).
Did not visit anyone's house yet, oh noez!
Ok new year resolutions:
1. Be pro in my studies (duh)
2. Be even proer in chem (duh x 2)
3. Have more common sense while dotaing
4. Make new friends. Close ones. ^^
5. Increase the number of tier 1s. (Shall not reveal what it means, figure it out yourself.)
6. Do well in projects (very important)
7. Enjoy my life (technically I've been slacking for the past years, so oh well)
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
JC Orientation
Today is the last day of JC Orientation, OG 30 ROCKS!
My OG is 30, we have very cool peers and a very cool OGL as well! Hurray to OG 30, it's really fun playing all the games at all the stations, and also the cheers. V-bomb HAHA.
So tomorrow is Chinese New Year celebration, jiayous to the councilors who would probably doing a very tiring job decorating the school right now.
Tomorrow is going to be another fun and tiring day! So I would need to sleep early tonight.
Anyways, the main thing that happened today.
1. Go station x
2. Get wet.
3. It rains, get even wetter.
4. Rain stops, clothes start to dry.
5. Go station y.
6. Get wet.
7. Rains again, complete station in the rain.
8. Rain stops, clothes start to dry.
9. The cycle continues.
WHAT HAVE WE LEARNT FROM THE ORIENTATION? WHATEVER YOU DO, YOU MUST CHEER!!
OG 30!! <3
My OG is 30, we have very cool peers and a very cool OGL as well! Hurray to OG 30, it's really fun playing all the games at all the stations, and also the cheers. V-bomb HAHA.
So tomorrow is Chinese New Year celebration, jiayous to the councilors who would probably doing a very tiring job decorating the school right now.
Tomorrow is going to be another fun and tiring day! So I would need to sleep early tonight.
Anyways, the main thing that happened today.
1. Go station x
2. Get wet.
3. It rains, get even wetter.
4. Rain stops, clothes start to dry.
5. Go station y.
6. Get wet.
7. Rains again, complete station in the rain.
8. Rain stops, clothes start to dry.
9. The cycle continues.
WHAT HAVE WE LEARNT FROM THE ORIENTATION? WHATEVER YOU DO, YOU MUST CHEER!!
OG 30!! <3
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