I feel a greater and greater need for an emotional support nowadays. It's as though everyone is getting tired of me, and then I get more and more easily, stressed-up?
After my Visa application got rejected for the second time I felt this panic that lasted for more than an hour. Not good at all, why do I care so much about this Visa that I have to panic for so long? Everything that I didn't care about would only result in a 5 minute panic. Maybe I'm starting to care about more things, or maybe just my defences are weakening.
All the while there is this poking feeling that whenever I go out I would bleed my wallet dry. And my mom is not helping at all by saying stupid stuff about comparing my friends based on how much material life they provided me and why I have to spend so much on birthday gifts. (Why is it always about birthday gifts -.-)
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