Reflection

Ok it's going to be 2012 in 1 hour, time to reflect on this year. My reflection this year will be separated into the good and the bad.

Bads
1. Studies
The first year in JC was horrible in terms of results received. The system was new, there were a lot of activities, and I still wanted to play, hence my grades have to suffer. Ranging from all subjects except GP which was still ok (in the promos that is), the rest were ridiculously bad.
Bio = did not mug enough, did not remember enough. Chem = too careless and too proud to do work properly. Maths = made careless mistake at the wrong place at the wrong time. Econs = o.o? I think I need help.. GP = more practice.

2. Work
There are other types of work such as Centad and ISYF, and random projects here and there (lol smtp). The main problem I see with myself now is that I tend to slack until the last minute, when I start to chiong. Also, I tend to do things by myself and do not order people around, ie. I became a voluntary tanker.

3. Relationships
When I make new friends, some old ones may have to go. I have this feeling that I may have communicated too little with some of my friends. Need better time management for this. But then, since my theory of tiers still hold, let's see how much time I can give to the rest.
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Goods
1. Relationships
I would say I made a lot of good friends this year, and also strengthened the ties with some of my old friends. So one of the ways how I 安慰 myself for the bads is that I made a lot of close friends in 1 year as compared to that 4 long years where I lived for no one.
Also, I've made a lot of friends who treat me as a close friend as well (there's a difference between you treating someone as close friend and him treating you as close friend) I think I made myself a more trustworthy person, so people tend to share their problems and stuff with me. Also, I'm a very casual person, hopefully I don't put nervous people off.

2. Personal
I really need to emphasize on this. I became a WAY BETTER person this year, as compared to the past 4 years in high school. I learnt a lot of things along the way, but the main change started late last year to this year, thanks to a lot of people who made me aware that I should improve my personality for the better. Firstly, I want to thank thamsy for his scoldings since last year about my horrible personality. I forced myself to change because I want him to be convinced that he has a friend worthy of his trust and care. It might be accidental, but yeah I changed for you, and now I changed for myself :)
Next, I want to thank ray yan for providing the ideas of love theory. I would say I always escape from logic because I'm (afraid?) of its power. (Actually I don't understand why I tend to move away from logic, maybe because I always feel that emotions along can get results as of now) But anyways, yup you taught me a lot about the subject of love, so I hope I can make good use of that for my future endeavors. o.o
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People
At the end of the year, there are quite a number of people that I want to thank.
First, thank you thamsy for being a close friend, for sharing with me your idea and philosophy, for talking about nonsense such as ingesting chloroform to drug people and carnivorous tendencies.
Second, thank you rayray for being a close friend (as well), talking to me during times when you were probably chionging work (again) while I'm lazily doing work or slacking, giving me the key to a locked world (so that hopefully I can make it a more cheerful place) and being a pseudo-神. (dun worry I wont treat u like a real 神 since I wont worship u :O)
Third, thank you domi for being someone whos interestingly similar in personality, and yet different enough to be unique in your own way, for being that one person, for letting me stone with u and many others.
Fourth, thank you gc for being pro! You are the few people who make me feel worryless whenever I talk to you, all the random convos that kept us entertained, dota games which I remained to be myself (at least I bought courier D:) and teaching me a lot of serious and non-serious knowledge.
Fifth, thank you (insert nameS of girls here) for getting to know me. Such as CHINGY who is an awesome leader in a lot of senses, esther who is the girl talk mate and sit-in-the-corner-and-emo-while-writing-melancholic-poems-about-life person, peiwei, jingyi and huimin for fun / random moments and secrets shared during these months.
Lastly, thank yous to many more friends who made my JC1 life in hwa chong memorable and easy-going. I'm very lucky to have met all of you this year. Esp people like wabo whom we have spent days after days together, helped each other and well slacked off during lectures and tutorials.
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To the rest: Happy new year! Hoped that this year has been enjoyable, and next year will be even better (despite A lvls and other bullshit)
Quotes coming up soon. :)