Suicide

It is just like killing yourself in a more subtle manner. All the problems rose from expectations and certain tragic past which is, tragic. And through self-punishment the suicide cycle continues.
It's kind of amusing how I used to get inferiority complex just by counting the number of commitments you have. Or maybe it's really being inferior. Now I got more 'relaxed' and decided that if I had so much commitments I would die, literally.
It's really painful to know that not many people can help you in the state you are in, because people see you as so 'godlike', have such high expectations of you, that they become unsure of what way they can help. And sometimes it is true that they can't provide any help as much as how you help yourself, and in that case noobs like me emo in a corner thinking about how to treat you nicely so that at least you don't kill yourself during the process of squishing people's faces. Seriously, I have no rock-solid solution to most if not all of your problems, simply because my life is so trouble-free and happy that that only kind of problems I meet either requires mugging or hugging to be solved. Uh maybe not hugging but just talking to people about my problems make me feel less troubled.
In that sense I look for emotional support more than anything else. You probably seek the same type of support, except I can't provide you with that because it's obvious. Well depends if you want to.
And in that sense I guess problems are directly proportionate to how much commitments one have. Seeing how some take up many commitments to kill off certain things, which created more problems, then more commitments. Endless cycle of suicide.
btw, ignore the teachers, you don't expect someone to have a thousand and one things and yet ace everything, like that might as well dun go school directly go 创业 alr.
when you read this you would probably erpz me :3