The way I show my liking towards someone seems...twisted. It just like what a close friend said 'When you like someone you don't appear to be more caring, instead you appear to be more spas.'
Does that mean I don't really like that person? It makes me wonder. Especially when I can feel myself slowly losing my emotions or something. I mean, it is weird to have never cried since sec 3 right? It probably means that I'm not 'sad enough', but what if instead my sadness limit has being extended such that things which make ordinary people cry no longer affect me? It's dam tiring to have that heavy feeling at night, and yet unable to release them through tears.
Back to the feeling of love. Maybe what I experience is merely a crush. And yet I am unable to show that I am a caring person with my actions, my gestures, my tone?
Maybe I'm too scared to take that risk. I already had that 'it's impossible' floating in my head. I think too much, and then I fear for the worst. zzz I suck.
The bad arrangement of my points shows how noob my GP is o.o
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