poll

Yesterday after calligraphy, where every other member is gone, the CMCs had a polling. So its a polling of me, Xing Bo, Han Song, Shuo Fei and Cao Yu.
The whole point of the poll is for fun, one CMC will be 'judged' by the other CFCs based on the 7 deadly sins: Envy, Sloth, Greed, Lust, Gluttony, Pride and Wrath. A score between 0 and 5 will be given for each sin, then the score will be added up. Of course the lower the score the better.
So anyways, the result of the poll is as following:
Xingbo (Chairman): Envy - 2, Sloth - 3, Greed - 2, Lust - 5, Gluttony - 4, Pride - 5, Wrath - 1. Total: 22
Hansong (Fac sec): Envy - 3, Sloth - 3, Greed - 2, Lust - 5, Gluttony - 3, Pride - 5, Wrath - 1. Total: 22
Caoyu (Treasurer): Envy - 1, Sloth - 5, Greed - 5, Lust - 5, Gluttony - 3, Pride - 4, Wrath - 1. Total: 24
Me (Public relations officer): Envy - 5, Sloth - 3, Greed - 2, Lust - 5, Gluttony - 1, Pride - 5, Wrath - 2. Total: 23
Shuofei (Secretary): Envy - 5, Sloth - 3, Greed - 2, Lust - 23 x 10^6, Gluttony - 3, Pride - 0, Wrath - 5. Total: x (Xingbo dun bother to count)
So conclusion, we are all very lustful poeple, but sf is the most lustful person, with a 'lust score' of 23 x 10^6. Secondly, sf has 0 pride, which xb says is 没有自尊心 aka 不要脸. Thirdly, xb is supposed to have 5 for gluttony and I think 5 for sloth or something, until he asked for a re-vote. By the way sf is supposed to have 1 for wrath, until I reminded them how he wanted to rape anyone he does not like i.e his common phrase is ‘插死你’.
Anyways the fun part is over. Let's go to the emo part.
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Although the poll is only for fun, but I'm still getting a little depressed.
If I tried to deny that I'm a very envious person, I would surely blame myself sooner or later. Because I am a very envious person. I get jealous over simple and stupid things. But at least I'm not the kind of person who would do bad things when they are jealous. The only thing I would do is to curse myself for being unable to be what I want to be. It's still envy, but it doesn't hurt anyone else.
Pride. I don't find myself a proud person except on the topic of Chemistry. Apart from that it's more of confidence than pride. For Chemistry I would most likely swagger around if I wanted to, because I'm a bad boy. When I get slightly above the others, or when I thought I did, on Chemistry, I would go all triumphant and proud. People should notice this, because sometimes it overflows and I would show it off too blatantly.
Wrath. Although 2 is ok, but I still got depressed when hs and xb got only 1. I've been telling people that my leadership quality is negative because I am unable to get angry and is too soft-hearted. To a certain extend I'm like nami, because she cannot go angry for long. But for me it's more of not being able to go angry at all. The best I can maintain is maybe 5 minutes? After that I would just become quiet and blame myself instead of others. That's why I'm always hesitant at being the group leader. The irony being I'm always the group leader, whether chosen by teacher via random picking or chosen by group members via sabotaging. So anyway I don't find myself a wrathful guy. As in I'm almost never really angry. At most I pretend to be angry on msn by talking in all caps, then look in amusement at other people's reactions.
Lol I'm self-pitying again dam it.
Bulk up and do chinese 阅报心得.